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Jul 28, 2009 02:20

god, look at this, nobody's commented on any journal entry i've written since may. i don't know why i bother writing here

i am so sick of writing about how sad i am but it's basically all i can feel anymore. i kind of can't wait to go home so i can get out of this routine of just working and being lonely. i'm /always/ lonely, i'm sick of it and i know everyone else is too, but it's like, even when i'm technically not alone, i still feel lonely because i don't feel like i'm wanted. and then i feel like it's because i'm clingy. i just want to be as important to somebody as everybody else is to me. maybe i'm just going to have to accept that nobody wants me like i want them. maybe i haven't found them yet. i don't care if it's a friend or something more. all i want is to know someone needs me.

i want to stop caring. i want it to stop hurting.
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