Teetering on the wire...
So... there was this guy that I met online... went 180 miles to see him every weekend... he lived with me for six weeks... and it's been a long time since I have last talked to him.
I don't love him anymore... I haven't loved him since before he moved in with me, as terrible as that sounds. I still however give a shit... I want him to be ok with himself. There was a whole lotta shit going on in his life in every conceivable aspect.
I'm not making excuses for him... I know that anyone his age should have things figured out a lot better than he did when we met and thru our relationship.
I sat with the screen on e-mail compose for several minutes today... wanting to send him a message... that I hope he's doing better and finally figuring things out for himself. I decided against it.
I'm the happiest I have ever been with my boyfriend. I by no stretch of the imagination want to re-kindle anything with this ex. I just wanted to let him know that I hope he's moving forward instead of back.
what triggered this? I went to his website. He had a message on there saying that he's never online anymore to update anything cause he's finishing school... and here's the kicker... he signed this letter with his real name. Not his gothy-goth pseudo-name.
It made me really think that he's grown up significantly.
We were close before the whole dating thing complicated things. I know that things will never be as they were...
I've heard a lot of people say that they are still friends with all their Ex's. I, however, am not. i'm not sure that I want to attempt...
I'm so conflicted... :)
I don't love him anymore... I haven't loved him since before he moved in with me, as terrible as that sounds. I still however give a shit... I want him to be ok with himself. There was a whole lotta shit going on in his life in every conceivable aspect.
I'm not making excuses for him... I know that anyone his age should have things figured out a lot better than he did when we met and thru our relationship.
I sat with the screen on e-mail compose for several minutes today... wanting to send him a message... that I hope he's doing better and finally figuring things out for himself. I decided against it.
I'm the happiest I have ever been with my boyfriend. I by no stretch of the imagination want to re-kindle anything with this ex. I just wanted to let him know that I hope he's moving forward instead of back.
what triggered this? I went to his website. He had a message on there saying that he's never online anymore to update anything cause he's finishing school... and here's the kicker... he signed this letter with his real name. Not his gothy-goth pseudo-name.
It made me really think that he's grown up significantly.
We were close before the whole dating thing complicated things. I know that things will never be as they were...
I've heard a lot of people say that they are still friends with all their Ex's. I, however, am not. i'm not sure that I want to attempt...
I'm so conflicted... :)