Love you..
I just feel awful now. Just hung up from gayuting with my sayang. We shared EVERYTHING among us. No secrets. Then suddenly i just blubbered something about my past that i even didn't remember. When he asked me, "did this really happened?". And then i just realised i was talking about that "thing". How can't i even realise i told him just now? I just felt really guilty. I never lied to him and i still want to be that way. After i told about the "thing", i just felt sad and cried. I felt so guilty towards him. I don't know what to do. He was really "nice" about it. Normally he won't pujuk me when i'm in my crying mode. But he was so nice and caring just now. I love him so much. I don't like lying to him and i don't intend to. I'm so sorry sayang. It's not that i didn't want to tell you, but in my brain, it just got erased coz i didn't want to remember it. I felt so down, really guilty and sad. Thank you for being my strong pillar. Be by my side when i felt that way. I love you more and more each and everyday. Love you sayang..