Obsession

[nataneu]

Just don't, just don't come near.
Your distant eyes pierce through me
And I fear you just don't understand
What it feels like.
To you, it's just another day.

"You are not real", I mutter in my sleep,
But then the next day I feel your presence
And understand that
This was just a useless hope.

The worst part yet, I let you do this
To me. And even when you're not around,
The thought of you tears up my soul
And treats it like a lifeless doll.
Without care, nor feeling.

You haunt my mind. I can't remember
When was the last time I haven't thought of you.
It seems, you never bothered once to realize
I used to have a life. Without you as my addiction.

You murdered all beliefs I used to have.
You locked away all my true opinions.
Now what is left of me can
Be compared to grains of sand. Or shapeless
Dust. Which only covers with one layer.

Sometimes I wonder on those sleepless nights...
When you let go of me completely.
What if it's not your fault?
What if it never even crossed your mind?
I am obsessed with you. You're like a drug.
How torturing and strangely simple.