you know what..........
all I can do is laugh. My day has gone from crappy to almost great. I was in bed al lday till about 6ish cause I just dont wanna deal with this situation or her. I was really pissed last night. Im sort of over it. but were both too stubborn to be the first to admit we were wrong. I admit isnt that the first step? anyways I definitly got some funny looks last night. maybe becasue of my peter pan skirt? hahahah Definitly a time to remember. anywhore wtf. I think I need to tone down a little. I need to just shut up (only sometimes) and take life for what its worth. I wish I was with my grandpa and reading poetry. I havent thought about that in a long time. Is everyone as confused as I am??? I couldnt quite tell you. You are only true to yourself and even then not everyone is. Poutney made my day. She is thinking about coming out to calgary. We might book our flight together. tee hee. She wants out. we had a chat. it was weird we just talked about life for like 4 hours. We got to talk about everything. we smoked. yeah yeah I know. its been a tough week so fuck off. It so funny casue I visited a tarot reader about my move out to Calgary. And he said it was going to be a very bumpy ride out there. Like I didnt know that. and that it will smooth out. he said it would be a good move. Im thinking of trying to get pt job with westjet so that I get super cheap flights. hell why not. Being able to fly to montreal/vistoria/st. johns for like 200 some weekend where I feel like gettin out??? I think so. I also think Im going to find a job that I actually enjoy? Is there such a thing? hahahha maybe a cafe/eatery that I would enjoy like the gourmet with much less snotty boss. I need something to do. I hate schedules im too much of a free spirit. I HATE SCHEDULES. Im a sagittarius were the wanderers of the universe. Change terrifies some people I crave it. Settling down terrifies me and most people crave it. maybe thats why I havent lived anywhere longer than 2 years since I was 11. Hell if I know or maybe I just run away from problems. I dont know and Im sure in the future Ill pay a shrink thousands of dollars to tell me that. I cant even stand my room one way more then a couple of months. I dont know this just what goes on in my mind in the run of a typical hour or so. Also I feel bad for a certain person that will remain unnamed. She is such a confused person. She needs help. Apparently shes going to rehab for drugs and/or alcohol. but only a day one. Sweetheart you need a hell of a lot more then that. I remember those days. Ive had some weird years. I think I think too much. I love this classifieds song "all about you". LIKE MOTHEFUCKIN BRILLIANT!!! Hes awesome. anyways im tired of thinking too much now. Also I love that shes been on the phone today for longer then she usually is in an friggin month. Sweetheart dont try to piss me off more then you already have. You may think your little miss priss is bad but your an amateur comapred to me. But that being said im trying to end my day on a good note.