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i've got a lot of thinking to do about the concept of friendship and how i seem to think if someone is mad at me that theyr'e don with me, i don't seem to think i'm worthy of forgiveness and that i feel like i have to ask for it more than the average bear. i feel like a watered down version of myself these days and i'm really trying to get over it but i'm all kinds of insecure and crazy right now so my instinct is to go into sleep defense and just hide... but then i realized i'm already in pseudo hiding and i need to force myself out. for some reason i feel like i don't have control over anything any more. i'm realizing i'm way too attached to material things and for someone... ok i've lost my thought.
steve and i are going to subway i'll try to write more later.. if for nothing else than to try to capture my fleeting sanity.
steve and i are going to subway i'll try to write more later.. if for nothing else than to try to capture my fleeting sanity.