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i don't know what was wrong with me today. i was in some kind of funk that infected my whole body but mostly my motor skills and ability to focus on anything other than feeling sick and stairing at the floor. i think it has something to do with the fact that it's raining ex boyfriends. it's nice to talk to lots of boys and have that ego boost but i am easily confused which is why sometimes i think it's a good idea not to talk to anyone but the man your dating. i think i'ts a very good plan.
it's strange, at this point in my life i have more friends than i ever have. real friends that i actually like hanging out with and that are good people, mostly female and it's awesome. i am, overall very happy in my life but i think i'm starting to freak out about my situation... it is past the do you like me and in my head its to the "how much" which is always a loaded question and never fair. i need to learn better to roll with the punches, or dates and kisses in this case. i need to learn that not everything could result in the end of the world, in fact not many things do. it's not that serious, i make it that way and then i get all insecure and think to much and am no longer the fun loving idiot that people are drawn to at first.
it's true i am an onion. sadly i'm also sometimes an ogar, but not the good kind.
my brain feels like this right now... ao9veuvbsnao'glbvkibouahwnz'ombf[ -paohieb n aordrfubn pma9ieh!@#$%^&*(jbsal;jnropihbtoliea!@#$%^&*(hakvnkrbhunalbif bjaeour jbnws;Ofvlhban.dlkskjdfgm!@#$%^&*()(
yeah that's pretty much it exactly.
it's strange, at this point in my life i have more friends than i ever have. real friends that i actually like hanging out with and that are good people, mostly female and it's awesome. i am, overall very happy in my life but i think i'm starting to freak out about my situation... it is past the do you like me and in my head its to the "how much" which is always a loaded question and never fair. i need to learn better to roll with the punches, or dates and kisses in this case. i need to learn that not everything could result in the end of the world, in fact not many things do. it's not that serious, i make it that way and then i get all insecure and think to much and am no longer the fun loving idiot that people are drawn to at first.
it's true i am an onion. sadly i'm also sometimes an ogar, but not the good kind.
my brain feels like this right now... ao9veuvbsnao'glbvkibouahwnz'ombf[ -paohieb n aordrfubn pma9ieh!@#$%^&*(jbsal;jnropihbtoliea!@#$%^&*(hakvnkrbhunalbif bjaeour jbnws;Ofvlhban.dlkskjdfgm!@#$%^&*()(
yeah that's pretty much it exactly.