so fucking scared

[natalienoo]

its 1:20am and i'm camped out in my bedroom with the couch in front of the door and pants blocking the cracks on the sliding doors. somewhere in my kitchen ( i lost it when i went to find a weapon, is a massive, the size of the palm of my hand, spider. i have hairspray and somesort of bug killer beside my bed, but i still have no idea how i am going to manage to sleep. all that shit i said about being alone, i take it back. i would kill to have someone here to kill this spider for me right now.

if i make it through the night, i might have to move into a hotel tomorrow.