it seems that time is just digging a bigger whole in my heart
I thought goint up north would get a lot off of my head,, i was wrong.. seriously im not obsessed im just in love, and i just cant let go. Buddy said we are just taking time, but what if that is just an excuse and we are really done..i miss him.. i miss him holding me, i miss seeing his face.. Im just not that happy anymore... I just got home from up north, the night before i left i talked to him for a good while on the phone and everything seemed to be improving but i havent talked to him since.. It hurts, to know how this is going..and that itm ight not come back.. I love this boy...
Theonly good part about gion up north is that sarah and stephanie was there... that made thingss easier, bc i knew if iw as there by myself that serioulsy i would probably just watch tv and write in my journal, i did cry a couple times, but thats normal when you are heart broken.. i have been sick too, on tuesday night i didnt go to bed until 4:30 bc i was tossin and turning the whole night,, than finally i threw up, didnt help much.. and im still not feeling all that good...
Im just waiting for that call...