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So.
lately things have been kindof stressful.
I guess I have felt overwhelmed with a lot.
I've been making a lot of private entries because I don't know who still has my link.
but anyway.
I finally let out all my tears and all that.
and my anger and everything two nights ago.
and it felt really, really good.
I cried about everything really, on how I hate how my mum made me feel so alone in 2004.
and how I totally still felt heart broken about Jamie.
Jessica. My weight. John.
everything.
You know I wish I could cry a lot more when I want too.
like I just need to stop holding it in and sucking it up.
because when I do cry, it just is like flood gates open.
So from now on, if I am upset - I am gonna let myself be upset.
Alright.
so I am applying for jobs on Monday.
wish me luck, I am anxious but a good kind of excited.
and I am working harder to get into shape - walking everyday and doing crunches every other day.
So,
I miss my brother a lot.
he called last night when I was out (on my cell phone) and he seemed annoyed about how I hadn't sent my resume.
but he wasn't online, it was kindof upsetting.
I hate upsetting my brother.
But yeah.
I can't believe it's the 14th today.
geesh.
well,
I am about to go clean my room.
SPRING CLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANING!
lately things have been kindof stressful.
I guess I have felt overwhelmed with a lot.
I've been making a lot of private entries because I don't know who still has my link.
but anyway.
I finally let out all my tears and all that.
and my anger and everything two nights ago.
and it felt really, really good.
I cried about everything really, on how I hate how my mum made me feel so alone in 2004.
and how I totally still felt heart broken about Jamie.
Jessica. My weight. John.
everything.
You know I wish I could cry a lot more when I want too.
like I just need to stop holding it in and sucking it up.
because when I do cry, it just is like flood gates open.
So from now on, if I am upset - I am gonna let myself be upset.
Alright.
so I am applying for jobs on Monday.
wish me luck, I am anxious but a good kind of excited.
and I am working harder to get into shape - walking everyday and doing crunches every other day.
So,
I miss my brother a lot.
he called last night when I was out (on my cell phone) and he seemed annoyed about how I hadn't sent my resume.
but he wasn't online, it was kindof upsetting.
I hate upsetting my brother.
But yeah.
I can't believe it's the 14th today.
geesh.
well,
I am about to go clean my room.
SPRING CLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANING!