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I'm stuck in the first few weeks of march. I think back to when I promised myself that I was going to make some physical and emotional changes by june back in the begining of february, I feel like that was two weeks ago, and that I still have a solid 3.5 months left. But in truth, I only have about 7 weeks.\
Its been two months and I've only lost a pound.
I have seven weeks left to lose the remaining 14.
Yeah right. I have no will power.
Once again, I have disappointed myself.
Tom is getting married in exactly one month. I'm so happy for him. But to be 100% honest, I'm scared. Tom has helped my through so much these past few months. He's like the big brother I never had. I'm scared that that's going to change. I'm worried that when his classes end, our schedules will no longer cross and we will no longer have out afternoon mighty runs (his classes end at 3, so he would be driving home at the same time I was getting home). I probably owe him about 100 super mighty's right now. At least once a week since like january, I would recieve random text messages with seven simple symbols; "mighty?" He would come pick me up and we would just go chill and east some mexican deliciousness. You would think that we would have more time for that over the summer, but I think we'll actually have less. I'll be all over the place with work and social engagements, and he'll be working, going to NC, and be spending all of his other time at home with his wife. I know I'm being extremely selfish right now but I've seen too many people change over the summer, and I don't want him to be one of them
I feel so distant from everyone right now.
Its been two months and I've only lost a pound.
I have seven weeks left to lose the remaining 14.
Yeah right. I have no will power.
Once again, I have disappointed myself.
Tom is getting married in exactly one month. I'm so happy for him. But to be 100% honest, I'm scared. Tom has helped my through so much these past few months. He's like the big brother I never had. I'm scared that that's going to change. I'm worried that when his classes end, our schedules will no longer cross and we will no longer have out afternoon mighty runs (his classes end at 3, so he would be driving home at the same time I was getting home). I probably owe him about 100 super mighty's right now. At least once a week since like january, I would recieve random text messages with seven simple symbols; "mighty?" He would come pick me up and we would just go chill and east some mexican deliciousness. You would think that we would have more time for that over the summer, but I think we'll actually have less. I'll be all over the place with work and social engagements, and he'll be working, going to NC, and be spending all of his other time at home with his wife. I know I'm being extremely selfish right now but I've seen too many people change over the summer, and I don't want him to be one of them
I feel so distant from everyone right now.