Dec 27, 2006 23:50
baby, ive lost my edge. a song sung by every small town artist who reflects upon their short and inconsequential life. ive lately reflected on my old habits of speech. i used to use amazing little phrases and i swear i was like a brit. i used words like "daddio" and i had more confidence in my speech patterns. and now. i wondered what i lost. it wasnt my old passions and my old habits, for i still have those. it was how i spoke, reflected what i thought of me. i used to speak alot, and loudly and smoothly. now i say very little, and only what must be said.
and vanessa, i will tell you one thing. you got me pinned on this. i lost something when i conceded to a relationship. i made myself lower. but it doesnt have to be that way, i just had to realize it.
and zach was right that what you think of yourself affects everything you do, though i didnt realize it until today. now i reflect on myself i realize that im so unsure