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lately i have been completely concerned with the wrong things.
this whole semester, all i thought about was when i was going out, getting approval from other people, and which boy was interested in me at the time. i drank myself stupid this semester, and my grades show it. ive met destructive people who ive had some good times with, but who have gotten me in trouble and left me alone in hard times. i have realized who my real friends are, and i realized that i have lost some of them. i feel like i will never be the same kind of friend as i was with melissa. im glad that ive started hanging out with erin more though. that has been one of the only good things that has happened this year.
i feel like i have no focus on anything important. even as i write this, all im thinking about is why i havent heard from briggs in 2 days even though i like james more anyways. im not thinking about how i dont have a place to live or any classes scheduled for the fall yet, or anything important like that...
i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me...im sick of feeling like this. im sick of not feeling like myself anymore. i just dont know how to get back to the way things were.
i miss it all though. i miss meeting new people all the time with melissa and always having hanging out at her place. i miss house parties, hanging out in pajamas watching football and fat camp all day. working out at the sac. and just enjoying myself and being happy. i feel like i havent been like that in a while.
i just want things back the way they used to be...
now to cheers...fuck my boss and his republican, racist, ignorant ass
this whole semester, all i thought about was when i was going out, getting approval from other people, and which boy was interested in me at the time. i drank myself stupid this semester, and my grades show it. ive met destructive people who ive had some good times with, but who have gotten me in trouble and left me alone in hard times. i have realized who my real friends are, and i realized that i have lost some of them. i feel like i will never be the same kind of friend as i was with melissa. im glad that ive started hanging out with erin more though. that has been one of the only good things that has happened this year.
i feel like i have no focus on anything important. even as i write this, all im thinking about is why i havent heard from briggs in 2 days even though i like james more anyways. im not thinking about how i dont have a place to live or any classes scheduled for the fall yet, or anything important like that...
i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me...im sick of feeling like this. im sick of not feeling like myself anymore. i just dont know how to get back to the way things were.
i miss it all though. i miss meeting new people all the time with melissa and always having hanging out at her place. i miss house parties, hanging out in pajamas watching football and fat camp all day. working out at the sac. and just enjoying myself and being happy. i feel like i havent been like that in a while.
i just want things back the way they used to be...
now to cheers...fuck my boss and his republican, racist, ignorant ass