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You know you’ve had a bad day when you are sitting at home, listening to depressing music, like “Bad Day” and “if I Die” by something corporate, and all you can think about is how you’re doomed to be rejected and alone and lonely for the rest of your life. Not that I was thinking about this the whole day, just the second half. From the point I knew this day was going to suck to the point where it reached it’s peak until now has been very brutal to me.
Now you’re wondering “what happened?” you ask yourself “what could possably make this kid, who has a good life, friends, skateboards, and a good taste in music, so depressed in the matter of less than a day? How could there possably be such a thing?” Well, I’ll tell you, but it isn’t going to be pretty.
When this day started off, I was in a good mood. My only real mission was to bring a friend, who needed a ride, to her work. I was to pick her up and taker to CVS, where she worked, so she could be at an important staff meeting about blah blah blah… stuff that’s not too interesting. Basically, she needed a ride, and I was to provide her with one.
Bill, a friend of mine, came to my house to hang out before I brought Jackie, the girl I was to give a ride, to work. We hung out, played a skateboarding game, got some food, and then went to pick her up.
Now, I didn’t know the way to Jackie’s house, so bill is providing me with directions. Quite inaccurately. A jumble of Lefts and rights and mixups and “Not that way” and “Go this way” and “STOP!”
Finally, we reach Jackie’s house. We are greated and we leave for her work. Another jumble of directions from everyone in the car.
This is where it gets ugly. While we wait for Jackie to get out of her work meeting, we are listening to music. Typical stuff, New Found Glory, Sugarcult, Simple Plan, what ever. And we come to a song that says “I realize now that I love you.” Now, as soon as you read that line, you think “Oh boy. Girl problems. He’ll get over it.” But for some reason, this is bigger.
So she comes back out and we pick up heather, Who bill is “involved” with and we go out. We go back to my house where we are later greeted by swiniarski. Another friend. We go out and hang around and see a movie. Jackie asks me to sit next to her, so I think “This is great. She must like me too!” so we watch the movie and all.
After the movie we go out and get food, and then everyone goes home. As soon as I get home I start typing, saying that I’m in love and I love her and that she needs to know. And I tell her. And I ask her if she feels the same way. And she says that she loves me. As a friend. And with those 8 letters my heart breaks.
And so I sit here listening to depressing music, wishing I wasn’t me.
Now you’re wondering “what happened?” you ask yourself “what could possably make this kid, who has a good life, friends, skateboards, and a good taste in music, so depressed in the matter of less than a day? How could there possably be such a thing?” Well, I’ll tell you, but it isn’t going to be pretty.
When this day started off, I was in a good mood. My only real mission was to bring a friend, who needed a ride, to her work. I was to pick her up and taker to CVS, where she worked, so she could be at an important staff meeting about blah blah blah… stuff that’s not too interesting. Basically, she needed a ride, and I was to provide her with one.
Bill, a friend of mine, came to my house to hang out before I brought Jackie, the girl I was to give a ride, to work. We hung out, played a skateboarding game, got some food, and then went to pick her up.
Now, I didn’t know the way to Jackie’s house, so bill is providing me with directions. Quite inaccurately. A jumble of Lefts and rights and mixups and “Not that way” and “Go this way” and “STOP!”
Finally, we reach Jackie’s house. We are greated and we leave for her work. Another jumble of directions from everyone in the car.
This is where it gets ugly. While we wait for Jackie to get out of her work meeting, we are listening to music. Typical stuff, New Found Glory, Sugarcult, Simple Plan, what ever. And we come to a song that says “I realize now that I love you.” Now, as soon as you read that line, you think “Oh boy. Girl problems. He’ll get over it.” But for some reason, this is bigger.
So she comes back out and we pick up heather, Who bill is “involved” with and we go out. We go back to my house where we are later greeted by swiniarski. Another friend. We go out and hang around and see a movie. Jackie asks me to sit next to her, so I think “This is great. She must like me too!” so we watch the movie and all.
After the movie we go out and get food, and then everyone goes home. As soon as I get home I start typing, saying that I’m in love and I love her and that she needs to know. And I tell her. And I ask her if she feels the same way. And she says that she loves me. As a friend. And with those 8 letters my heart breaks.
And so I sit here listening to depressing music, wishing I wasn’t me.