GEO SAFARI
SO I sit here alone, and that is never the way to be. But its true. My teeth really hurt and I need to go to a dentist appointment soon because I think I need a root canal. I did what I feel is everything I needed to do. SO taking care of myself is the only thing left to do. I don't want to continue down this toxic path and I know I need to get rid of people to do it. I have been smoking lately but whenever I see myself come outside of smoking its because bones in my closet. And the truth of the matter is, even my neighbor is someone I need to cut off because he doesn't respect me or anything about me when I am using more than just a pipe. He will take my pipe, not give it back, keep it, and im left to die. So a pipe should be something I don't let go in times of need, Right now this moment I do not have a pipe. But I do have stuff. SO not having a pipe will lead me to do it other ways and those other ways are more dangerous than smoking. So I ask myself, do these people want me to die ? Even though I am the oyne who wanted to go there with my past. But if they knew me before they would know that Im a smoker and the lifestyle that comes along with it. I believe when my neighbor started smoking with me or me with him I was already using the other poison and that is why im having difficulties now. But I need to get back to the normal me. The fearless and moral searching inventory told me that smoking doesn't come cheap or no money at all, compared to other potions , and if I choose to do smoke that being broke isn't gonna cut it. I figured I can wing it till I get myself back on my own two feet and get lucky every now and than. But I forget its a lifestyle and one is too many and a thousand is never enough. But it isn't always easy to say no when something is being given to you for free. But its free for me, but not for them. But either way, two wrongs do not make a right . So with that said I pray that I can do this, I pray that I can have the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the DIFFERENCEEEEEEE.. amen
to be continued. thank you.