A Dream Escape
Started having these familiar colorful dreams again. With crisp, weird landscapes and action. They're not like those conscious dreaming experiences, I'm never aware of being asleep, but they provide me with loads of weird and - sometimes - kinky entertainment. There's a lot of sexually charged stuff going on. From embracing Irene Adler, the Dominatrix from the Sherlock BBC series, to being a mistress for an effeminate Korean 30-year-old, all very arousing. I wish to see certain fictional characters - I see them, there's been Spike in it recently, I see old friends, whom I haven't really seen in ages. Had Ilya in my dream today in a mildly suggestive situation, necking and talking about the past. I remember... do you remember?.. I will always remember. There's been this one time when we could have taken a shot at it - a nice friends-with-benefits kind of shag. On the one hand, I think, it's better that we didn't, on the other hand, I will always want know how it would have been. I still feel how it was, lying there, with my head on his lap, his fingers caressing my cheek, then we were dreamily kissing, excitement surging through me in hot pulsing waves... I cannot help but wonder if he ever thought about it again, if he still wants me or not. If he ever really did.
