Oct 18, 2005 14:52
For a really long time, I've been coming up with the ways to do this. It's harder than I thought it would be. Everything about you makes me sigh. The way you defended me like a knight in shining armour. The way you have no idea where your life is going, but at the end of the day you just choose to be with me. It's a surreal experience for someone that can hardly keep her head on straight. Yet there's something that just can't connect between us. As hard as we've tried to try and make two become one, we're stuck as a separate entity. A relationship can't work that way, not being like this after so much time spent together. I feel like you complete me, but I just cannot complete you.
Maybe it's all the secrecy, all the sneaking around. Our love needs the air to breathe and you just won't let it. I think you've still got to get to exploring your infinite abyss, and I cannot be along for the ride any longer. I mean, I like you and there's that. But despite how complete I feel, I can't keep putting myself out there in a situation that...well...a situation that hurts as much as this one. I must jump out of this large...man state.
This is it. This is everything. This is my goodbye. So long. Farewell. I'm sorry Zach Braff, but this is it. This is life.