Depressing Vacation....UGH
*sigh* My brother and I are already fighting. I miss how we acted like 2 years ago. He was so sweet, and we got along so great. Maybe I should cut out the mean jokes too... I suppose it takes two people to be nice to each other....so I'm kinda part of the problem. I just want us to be friends. Is that too much to ask??
My dad is being an asshole. Ugh. I just want to go home.
He gets so mad so easily. *sigh* I'll say one thing wrong, and I'll get screamed at. It's not only scary, but I'm not used to it, so I just want to cry everytime.
He doesn't think it's that big of a deal, but it is....well it is to me.
I can't believe I have to be in this hellhole for another week. I can't believe my mom lied to me either. Ugh. I am getting so emotional over here, and no one knows it but me. It's sickening.
I'm sitting here listening to "Welcome to My Life" by Simple Plan. I bet you can guess my reaction...
I went to Nat's for a barbecue. It was fun, but I just kind of felt out of place. You know what I mean? I always feel out of place around my dad's relatives... Last year my freaken cousins said that I was their half cousin just because my brother is my half brother. It really hurt... I dunno. No matter what people do, I still won't belong in their family. I was a simple accident that my dad and his family have to suffer for. Ugh. I just want to go home. I want to at least KNOW I belong somewhere, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes.
Well, I guess I'll go and sit my ass in front of the boring tv and wish I fit in in this screwed up family. I never will. No matter how I try. *sigh* I need a hug.
No one is here that I know though...except Nat, but she'd never understand.
I wonder what would happen if I ran away in Detroit!! lmao. I'm not that stupid, but yeah....sometimes it's hard. And I'm sick of faking a smile...
I better go. I'm sick of typing this shit cuz all I'm doing is depressing myself.
Laterz.