yucky
so i'm at work and we have an inservice and all they have for an option for me is tuna...which i'm still kinda iffy about because it has to be just right for me to tolerate eating... and fish can be quite questionable... anyways i had two bites and that was that and i've felt rather funny ever since... maybe i psyched myself out either way... i feel like crap ola and can't wait to go home and waller in the bed with my sweets at least then i might feel better dinner in bed could be good we'll see if i can work it out that way okay
we'll i had my second therapy appointment and we talk alot about my relationships and why i would rather have internal conflict than disappoint or have someone disaprove of me which some how he thinks is linked back to my biological father leaving us when i was two years old and impressing upon me that i need to be good and please people or they will leave me... which i'm trying to work through whether or not i agree... i know that the greatest pain in my life has been caused by people giving up on me and leaving... people i thought were my friends who i bent over backwards for and they didn't place the same value on me so they walked away... most never to be heard from again i never had friends i could fight with and make up with and become stronger for the fight until J came along she changed that streak for me and we have had some ugly fights in our tenure and seem better for them so anyways i got a journal like old fashion times and i've decided to write to get through some of the baggage we are working through but i'll keep you updated on the progress no doubt
we'll i had my second therapy appointment and we talk alot about my relationships and why i would rather have internal conflict than disappoint or have someone disaprove of me which some how he thinks is linked back to my biological father leaving us when i was two years old and impressing upon me that i need to be good and please people or they will leave me... which i'm trying to work through whether or not i agree... i know that the greatest pain in my life has been caused by people giving up on me and leaving... people i thought were my friends who i bent over backwards for and they didn't place the same value on me so they walked away... most never to be heard from again i never had friends i could fight with and make up with and become stronger for the fight until J came along she changed that streak for me and we have had some ugly fights in our tenure and seem better for them so anyways i got a journal like old fashion times and i've decided to write to get through some of the baggage we are working through but i'll keep you updated on the progress no doubt