May 22, 2006 15:42
i am so unsure of myself at this point.
i don't know who or where i am.
i don't know who my friends are.
i don't know who i want my friends to be.
i don't understand the things i want, or why i want them.
i'm clawing to get out of this hole, but everytime i get close to the top, someone or something kicks me back down so hard that i can't help but let depression set in.
i don't like who i am right now.
blank, distant, unhappy, mad, indifferent, sad. so many adjectives for someone other than who i normally identify with.
summer. the best and worst of times.