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Dear
Goodmorning sunshine. I guess it is obvious by now that I am gone. But I want to tell you and the kids what I couldn’t bear to say the past few days. I believe since my diagnoses and my awareness of my nearing death I’ve been planning for this morning. I must admit that report didn’t surprise me as much I thought, I guess we all know we will die one day; we just need to be reminded once in a while. And the doctor decided to remind me with a clock out slip.
But in the same time I didn’t need that report in order to show my love and appreciation to my dear ones and world I live in. I like to believe that I did a fair job showing you and the kids what you mean to me, and what this life with you guys has offered me. I also like to confess that I never stop counting the blessings of my well being and fortune in the world, but my true confession is I fell in love with this seducing world way to much sometimes, I felt I am an immortal. Kids, you may not understand why I left on this day, and I hope your mother will find it in her heart to explain to you in ways I can’t right now. I spent the rest of my given days with you, but I want to spend my dying hours in a place dear to heart. A place that a part of me has always wanted to be at but life didn’t offer me the chance, and I know it will leave a smile on face when my soul depart from it. God knows it doesn’t mean I had enough with you guys and that your presence is not what my other whole part of my heart is melting for, but I never learned how to say goodbye, never know how to act like a man about it, how bear it. I was afraid that word alone will be enough to kill me right there and beat that disease to it. However I never left you, you are here with me at this moment, how can I leave and you and you are a part of me. I know all this may sound hypocritical right now, but I do wish your mom will explain between the lines. Sunshine, it was a honor to spend all those years with you, to share all those moments next you. You are the sunshine I wake up to eveymorning and the home I return to everynight. Your love was the roof above my head. Your heart was the greatest prized I ever got. You never left my side, you never let go, you always believed in me. I believe loving you saved me from being my worst nightmare. You taught me what no teacher can ever teach, you taught me the meaning of love. I still wonder, did I find you or was it you who came to my rescue. You’ve been there at the beginning and stood like an oak all through it. I am humbled by such a partner. We had a great deal of an amazing times together, beautiful memories we painted hand by hand. I know you will be fine; you will stand strong and live with smile and a good heart after I am gone, or else what did you learn from me? And no burping on command doesn’t count. Look after the kids, I know they are grown now, but still, if we know our children right, they will always leave a mess to clean after. Keep the love in your life alive; keep the fire in you lit. You might feel you are alone now, but don’t, everyime such sorrow or sadness comes sneaking into your heart, remember the old days and smile, and if no one is around just laugh hysterically, such insanity will definitely remind you of me. You all mean this whole world to me. I lived a long life, filled with laughs and tears, joy and grief, rewards and misfortune, but when god gave me this family I felt that what I have been through, good or bad, was just a hallucination. You became my oasis. My dear kids, I brought to this world, well technically your mom did, and we taught you what we believe is good for, but it’s your life and no one else but you can be blamed for your deeds. Live healthy and do good to others. Always seek advice and counsel, but don’t live in someone else’s shadow. Don’t be afraid to stand out and step forward. Always be true to yourself and remember your friends and dear ones. Your good deeds are your fortune and your passion is your light. Don’t hesitate to be original, and remember to say thank you for a helping hand. Your actions are your characters. Be what you want to be but remember, you live in a community that involved people with feelings who deserve your respect. I hope you found some wisdom in my life, and learned from my mistakes. Leave something to this world, change it to a better place for all, even by a word you can make someone’s day. At the end it doesn’t matter what you’ve took from this world and what you’ve gained, it’s what you gave to it.
I love you, I love you more than I can express. I will always watch over you and will never let go. My journey ends here, yours doesn’t, so make one hell of journey out of it guys. We will meet soon, until then, may God keep blessing you and keep you in his grace.
You loving father,
Goodmorning sunshine. I guess it is obvious by now that I am gone. But I want to tell you and the kids what I couldn’t bear to say the past few days. I believe since my diagnoses and my awareness of my nearing death I’ve been planning for this morning. I must admit that report didn’t surprise me as much I thought, I guess we all know we will die one day; we just need to be reminded once in a while. And the doctor decided to remind me with a clock out slip.
But in the same time I didn’t need that report in order to show my love and appreciation to my dear ones and world I live in. I like to believe that I did a fair job showing you and the kids what you mean to me, and what this life with you guys has offered me. I also like to confess that I never stop counting the blessings of my well being and fortune in the world, but my true confession is I fell in love with this seducing world way to much sometimes, I felt I am an immortal. Kids, you may not understand why I left on this day, and I hope your mother will find it in her heart to explain to you in ways I can’t right now. I spent the rest of my given days with you, but I want to spend my dying hours in a place dear to heart. A place that a part of me has always wanted to be at but life didn’t offer me the chance, and I know it will leave a smile on face when my soul depart from it. God knows it doesn’t mean I had enough with you guys and that your presence is not what my other whole part of my heart is melting for, but I never learned how to say goodbye, never know how to act like a man about it, how bear it. I was afraid that word alone will be enough to kill me right there and beat that disease to it. However I never left you, you are here with me at this moment, how can I leave and you and you are a part of me. I know all this may sound hypocritical right now, but I do wish your mom will explain between the lines. Sunshine, it was a honor to spend all those years with you, to share all those moments next you. You are the sunshine I wake up to eveymorning and the home I return to everynight. Your love was the roof above my head. Your heart was the greatest prized I ever got. You never left my side, you never let go, you always believed in me. I believe loving you saved me from being my worst nightmare. You taught me what no teacher can ever teach, you taught me the meaning of love. I still wonder, did I find you or was it you who came to my rescue. You’ve been there at the beginning and stood like an oak all through it. I am humbled by such a partner. We had a great deal of an amazing times together, beautiful memories we painted hand by hand. I know you will be fine; you will stand strong and live with smile and a good heart after I am gone, or else what did you learn from me? And no burping on command doesn’t count. Look after the kids, I know they are grown now, but still, if we know our children right, they will always leave a mess to clean after. Keep the love in your life alive; keep the fire in you lit. You might feel you are alone now, but don’t, everyime such sorrow or sadness comes sneaking into your heart, remember the old days and smile, and if no one is around just laugh hysterically, such insanity will definitely remind you of me. You all mean this whole world to me. I lived a long life, filled with laughs and tears, joy and grief, rewards and misfortune, but when god gave me this family I felt that what I have been through, good or bad, was just a hallucination. You became my oasis. My dear kids, I brought to this world, well technically your mom did, and we taught you what we believe is good for, but it’s your life and no one else but you can be blamed for your deeds. Live healthy and do good to others. Always seek advice and counsel, but don’t live in someone else’s shadow. Don’t be afraid to stand out and step forward. Always be true to yourself and remember your friends and dear ones. Your good deeds are your fortune and your passion is your light. Don’t hesitate to be original, and remember to say thank you for a helping hand. Your actions are your characters. Be what you want to be but remember, you live in a community that involved people with feelings who deserve your respect. I hope you found some wisdom in my life, and learned from my mistakes. Leave something to this world, change it to a better place for all, even by a word you can make someone’s day. At the end it doesn’t matter what you’ve took from this world and what you’ve gained, it’s what you gave to it.
I love you, I love you more than I can express. I will always watch over you and will never let go. My journey ends here, yours doesn’t, so make one hell of journey out of it guys. We will meet soon, until then, may God keep blessing you and keep you in his grace.
You loving father,