Strange when nothing happens
I dunno what I mean have the time. My life feels like a horrible movie that just won't end. Groundhogs day with no plot. I need direction badly. All I make are bad and wrong decisions. No thats not redundant. Some are bad and some are just plan stupid and wrong. I feel like a hampster in my wheel. I keep running and I never go anywhere. I have all these plans and ideas I just never have any energy to go through with them. I'm tried of not getting what I want and having it dangled infront of me after I fail. Its cruel and mean. I know I do it to myself, but people don't help. I tired of hearing well if you would have just tried you could have had it. Thanks, thanks a lot for telling me that now. I am a guy I don't see things correctly at all... I should be happy. I should be exstatic, but no. As usual I am self loathing and pathetic. I need to build some self confidence...Blah blah blah.