One step at a time
If u hate random reflection entries like these, then please, skip it.
... I've been pretty rotten this past week.
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I feel really guilty about everything I said, about everything I did. I don't really want to act this way, but it just seems like everything's been getting on my nerves lately, I don't know what to say... or what to do. I wish I could just gulp it down like a rotten vegetable, but somehow I'm tired of that... but at the same time I know that being mad is wrong...
I remember in Gr. 12... people wanted to dress me up... IN a dress............ -.-" seriously, that pissed me off to no end, I'd joke about it but really it just pissed me off. It's so... embarassing... I mean... geez... sure I'd do it if it was a play, and everyone expected me to, because it was NEEDED...
... but it's still embarassing nonetheless... >_<;
I seriously don't know what's wrong. I got mad playing drums, washing dishes, doing everything... and it's like, I'm thinking of too many things already. From personal problems such as people talking behind my back... from family issues (i'm sorry, I can't talk about that, it's not my right to do so), and having stuff to do, being forced to undertake certain things, being tied down... without being able to open my arms to anything, where I'm deprived of breathing the air from outside...
One step at a time... that's what I need to tell myself... and...
Why bicker at all the things you have to do..?
If these are the things that get you closer to happiness... why not do them?
Have fun doing them...
Even when you suffer, it's better to have fun doing them, right? =3
... omg I are make self better. xD
Anyways... I'm sorry for making you read this if you ignored my,"if you hate entries like these, sign and said to yourself,"meh, i'll just read it anyways..."
^^;;;;; I don't know how to do LJ cuts. Can someone please tell me how? I tried looking, and I couldn't find anything. =/
Watching Fruits Basket reminded me of something. Something I already knew... that people aren't born with Kindness. That's something you have to master. We're only born with instincts to live...
but kindness is something that is developed over time...
=3 so I want to do my best to try to get rid of whatever angsty-ness I have left inside and try harder.
=3 ja ne.
... I've been pretty rotten this past week.
=/
I feel really guilty about everything I said, about everything I did. I don't really want to act this way, but it just seems like everything's been getting on my nerves lately, I don't know what to say... or what to do. I wish I could just gulp it down like a rotten vegetable, but somehow I'm tired of that... but at the same time I know that being mad is wrong...
I remember in Gr. 12... people wanted to dress me up... IN a dress............ -.-" seriously, that pissed me off to no end, I'd joke about it but really it just pissed me off. It's so... embarassing... I mean... geez... sure I'd do it if it was a play, and everyone expected me to, because it was NEEDED...
... but it's still embarassing nonetheless... >_<;
I seriously don't know what's wrong. I got mad playing drums, washing dishes, doing everything... and it's like, I'm thinking of too many things already. From personal problems such as people talking behind my back... from family issues (i'm sorry, I can't talk about that, it's not my right to do so), and having stuff to do, being forced to undertake certain things, being tied down... without being able to open my arms to anything, where I'm deprived of breathing the air from outside...
One step at a time... that's what I need to tell myself... and...
Why bicker at all the things you have to do..?
If these are the things that get you closer to happiness... why not do them?
Have fun doing them...
Even when you suffer, it's better to have fun doing them, right? =3
... omg I are make self better. xD
Anyways... I'm sorry for making you read this if you ignored my,"if you hate entries like these, sign and said to yourself,"meh, i'll just read it anyways..."
^^;;;;; I don't know how to do LJ cuts. Can someone please tell me how? I tried looking, and I couldn't find anything. =/
Watching Fruits Basket reminded me of something. Something I already knew... that people aren't born with Kindness. That's something you have to master. We're only born with instincts to live...
but kindness is something that is developed over time...
=3 so I want to do my best to try to get rid of whatever angsty-ness I have left inside and try harder.
=3 ja ne.