A grunt's ramblings
Wishing i were elsewhere. I can't seem to find a right path out here. this wasteland consumes me. I only thought that i could maybe make a difference, but how foolish that was. How could someone so small, someone so insignificant, someone of so little rank do anything to change this big machine? Things have been done one way for too long to be changed by a small ripple. The ripple may grow and gain strength in numbers, but eventually the ripple hits the shore. The fad dies out, and everything goes back to normal. you wouldn't even know the ripple had been there. So where is the reason? Where is the inspiration? All i see in this sea of demons is merely that. DEMONS. How can i look up to that? How can i be a pawn beneath them? But that's where i am. I am a grunt at their mercy. On a whim they could smight me and cast me away. Good thing I am a good little grunt. I don't cause trouble. I do my job and go on to help others with theirs. I do make mistakes sometimes, and the demons LOVE to see me fall at those times. They always come so close to casting me off, but they don't. They see my value. I work harder than the other little goblins. They start to realize that I might make a few more mistakes, but that's because i put myself in harder situations. Much more difficult problems. They see that i learn faster. What a good little grunt. You will make a fine demon some day.
I don't want to be a demon. Why do i continue to show improvement. That only puts me closer to being one of them. I hate it. I am trapped. Trapped in this big mess. Why did i get myself into this? YOU REALLY THOUGHT YOU COULD MAKE A DIFFERENCE! I didn't know. YOU REALLY THOUGHT YOU COULD CHANGE THE WAY THINGS WORK AROUND HERE!? I thought i could do some good. HA! WE CHANGE YOU. THAT'S THE WAY IT WORKS. EITHER THE SQUARE PEG GETS PUSHED THROUGH THE ROUND HOLE, OR WE THROW YOU AWAY.
I don't know what i thought.
Ever fealt the need to let out? Of course you have. This helped me a little. I dunno why. I only put my hands on the keyboard and then this came out.
I don't want to be a demon. Why do i continue to show improvement. That only puts me closer to being one of them. I hate it. I am trapped. Trapped in this big mess. Why did i get myself into this? YOU REALLY THOUGHT YOU COULD MAKE A DIFFERENCE! I didn't know. YOU REALLY THOUGHT YOU COULD CHANGE THE WAY THINGS WORK AROUND HERE!? I thought i could do some good. HA! WE CHANGE YOU. THAT'S THE WAY IT WORKS. EITHER THE SQUARE PEG GETS PUSHED THROUGH THE ROUND HOLE, OR WE THROW YOU AWAY.
I don't know what i thought.
Ever fealt the need to let out? Of course you have. This helped me a little. I dunno why. I only put my hands on the keyboard and then this came out.