dr. appointment
Ok so i went got my pap and it hurt a lot and the nurse at Planned parenthood recomnded i go get the surgery for endometriosis and we changed my birth control. changed it from ortho novum to desogen. the package is super cute it's slim and purpol and silver on the edges and the pills are super small.
I have an apointment with a disability doctor on tuesday and i'm scared to death. i am afraid he wont finde anything wrong with me.
My dad is mad at me because i seem to be abole to go out on the bus to tims house on friday nights but i cant get a job. i told i dont go to tims i go to eric house and we spend 90 % of the time there. and i'm still in alot of pain and he said i just have to find it some where in me to get through the endometriosis and other stuff and work. i'm almost 25 and i have nothing. he's afraid i will winde up living here untill he and mom die and winde up in a nursing home after that. like this girl they used to know.
i told him i was doing good at RGIS untill my car broke.
and hes afraid to put more money in my car becuase it's ither fixable or i'm screwed we pretty much have to put more money in to finde out i just need to finde a day i can go get my cousin briana and her huband and have him look at it and my dad said he would look bvecause a head gasket isnt that bad unlelss we cant get to it.
i'm just so sic of this. i'm so depressed and in pain all the time. it's bull shit. why did this have to hapen to me. i just wnat to curl up and cry but i dont and i hide the fact that i'm depressed so my mom and eric wont worry. and it's not getting any better. i'm begining to hate my doctor because he cant freaking help me. or wont i dont know witch it is.
I have an apointment with a disability doctor on tuesday and i'm scared to death. i am afraid he wont finde anything wrong with me.
My dad is mad at me because i seem to be abole to go out on the bus to tims house on friday nights but i cant get a job. i told i dont go to tims i go to eric house and we spend 90 % of the time there. and i'm still in alot of pain and he said i just have to find it some where in me to get through the endometriosis and other stuff and work. i'm almost 25 and i have nothing. he's afraid i will winde up living here untill he and mom die and winde up in a nursing home after that. like this girl they used to know.
i told him i was doing good at RGIS untill my car broke.
and hes afraid to put more money in my car becuase it's ither fixable or i'm screwed we pretty much have to put more money in to finde out i just need to finde a day i can go get my cousin briana and her huband and have him look at it and my dad said he would look bvecause a head gasket isnt that bad unlelss we cant get to it.
i'm just so sic of this. i'm so depressed and in pain all the time. it's bull shit. why did this have to hapen to me. i just wnat to curl up and cry but i dont and i hide the fact that i'm depressed so my mom and eric wont worry. and it's not getting any better. i'm begining to hate my doctor because he cant freaking help me. or wont i dont know witch it is.