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...Can I ever write anything short?! I started on a new Abyss story for ranchelle because I've been stuck on the Florian/Anise thing for months now, and it's turning into another freaking epic. I've got about a page done, but I think it'll need at least six more to deal with the current situation, let alone move the plot to where we can have a happy
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I read your comment here last night and wanted to respond to it straightaway, but didn't because I felt I had no right to jump in on a conversation, so I was going to wait until ranchelle had replied before I said anything, but I'm actually really glad you wrote this so I could just say all I wanted to say here.
Just writing the rant below makes me determined not to give up, out of pure contrariness. ^^;
I'm happy you don't want to give up! *smiles* Keep going! From what you've written so far, I'm looking forward to whatever you write. *smiles*
I am however not posting what I have of the other story I wrote today. I don't know if I'll be able to finish that too, and I don't want to disappoint anyone.
After I say that it's perfectly all right if you don't feel like posting your stories, I just want to say that you will not disappoint anyone. The very existence of Abyss fanfiction makes me happy, but your stories do even more than that, for me. I said once before how your stories helped me through a very difficult time in my life, and they did. In fact, just a couple of days before this I was talking about Abyss fanfiction with a friend and thinking about you. In that time of my life I was breaking down in the university library and - just unbelievably unhappy, and what I'd do after a really bad session was go straight to the computer and read your story. It's actually the reason that your fic is direct-linked on my main LJ page. *wry smile* It's... going to sound so over the top, but it is true - when I was in pieces, I read your story and just reading it knit me back together again. I only read in this manner in the truly bad times, and until you I never thought that fanfiction could ever be like that. Normally when I read fanfiction it's because I love the characters and I love the series, and I love a writer's work, but no other fanfiction author has ever been able to do what you have, for me. I know this may be more than you ever wanted to know, but I just thought that someone who has the talent that you have should never be afraid of disappointing people.
And - it doesn't matter to me, whether or not a story is finished. If a story is as good as yours, it doesn't matter to me if there's only one chapter of it, or even half a chapter - the kind of joy I experience from reading a story like that, however much of it there is, no matter if it is never finished, far outweighs all I get from the 242040433343 other works I see that don't touch me the way yours does. (... I apologise if I sound horribly dismissive and if it sounds like I'm saying all the 2304230430 other works aren't up to par, because there is so much good stuff out there, but what I mean to say is that no one can do it like you.) 'cause I've wanted to read Abyss fanfiction so badly that I can safely say that I think I've read every English fanfiction there is and exhausted every search engine, I can't read Japanese and I've even tried Babelfish as a last measure of desperation (I keep trying. *wry smile* Never a good idea, that translator mangles languages very badly), and I've even found Chinese fanfiction for Abyss, and my Chinese is truly abysmal, and - I've tried fanfiction in three languages for this series, (or other series I've been into I've even found Indonesian and French fanfiction - I will literally read everything) and you're still one of the best writers I have ever had the joy to encounter.
Put simply, 'Tales of the Abyss' doesn't need me.
For all the above reasons I'd like to disagree!
So Luke and the other characters I love will still have a voice, whether I say it for them or not.
But no one can do it like you.
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Argh, I'm so sorry if this is upsets you or anything, and you're perfectly free to yell at me for anything that I've gotten wrong, because it could be coming out wrong.
actually don't like writing fanfiction that much, because to be honest any kind of story writing is for me an emotional challenge. (Not coming up with the story, but shoving the words out of my head onto the computer by force.
I KNOW THIS FEELING. *wry smile* In fact, that's what writers say is the hardest part about writing. Getting the words out. Maybe I'm getting it all wrong, but sometimes for me, writing can be such a pain because what ends up on the page is not at all what I meant or what I saw inside my head, and just writing alone can be so difficult.
Setting aside times when I get blisteringly angry at one character or another (oh, I am neither fair nor balanced; don't hurt characters I love OR ELSE IT'S PAYBACK)
I can think of all the people I know who have had to endure yet another of my fits of intense rage at Asch and the very extreme love/hatehatehateHATE everything, and - I'm the same.
it's embarassing and depressing to read something I wrote and hate it.
*hugs you so tightly* I'd want so much to say that you should never feel that, even as I know that that's near to impossible. Just... sometimes, writers are their harshest critics? Don't be too hard on yourself. I know that sometimes being hard on oneself is what makes a writer great, but - don't let it stop you? When you write, when you put words together, you are bringing something beautiful into the world, and you should never be ashamed of that. When you write, you're giving us the world the way you see it. You're bringing to our attention what might have otherwise gone unnoticed, you're taking the existing story to new places no one could have ever thought of before. Every writer brings something new to a series, and you have done, and can do, this. Just the way you put the words together, the direction you take the new worlds you create - they're all you, and they're wonderful. Don't let anyone, not even yourself, tell you that your work is less than what it is. *hugs tight*
But my own stories and my own characters have nobody but me. Nobody even knows my character's names but me. If I don't write their story who will do it?
*grin* There's the one thing I can't contest. I know that there's so little time for writing in our lives, next to all the things we have to do, and I fully support your wish to give your time and attention to those things which matter the most to you. And this - it's all yours, and you're right, here.
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I'll write you a longer response tomorrow, if you don't mind. And here's a hint for the other story - seven years ago, a certain weirdo with a spiky ponytail fell into a hole and died. :E I'll post what I have of it also tomorrow (I can't argue with a lawyer!) after I polish it a little. I'm just not feeling too well today.
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Take your time! *smiles* If you're short of time, don't feel you have to reply; I just wanted to let you know how much I admired your work.
I'll post what I have of it also tomorrow (I can't argue with a lawyer!)
*grin!* You can always argue with a lawyer. *smiles* Some lawyers are really cheegles. :D (And I am always surprised when it's known that I'm studying law - from looking at my LJ, one'd never think I was a lawyer, I think. *grin*)
*comforts!* I'm sorry to hear you're not feeling well, and I hope you feel better tomorrow!
here's a hint for the other story - seven years ago, a certain weirdo with a spiky ponytail fell into a hole and died. :E
IS JUST GLEEFUL ABOUT STORY HINT LIKE WHOA. ♥ Thank you so much! *grin* Take your time with it - I know it'll be worth it however long the wait. *smiles*
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Well, you've mentioned a few times that you were studying it, so...
Thanks. :) My mom thinks it's low blood pressure, but it might also just be the heat here. It's very humid and we don't have air conditioning at my house >_<
It's my stupid revenge for Akuzelius. :E
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