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I had a wonderful experience last night, when God the Father came to me in love, and when it was also proven that Jesus is in Him, and today I also learned that I saw the Father when I knew that I saw Jesus in some way. I am learning to love God, to have the fear and trembling but also the will to get the fear cast out by love. Yes, I am supposed to work out my salvation in fear and trembling, but if I manage to stay in the Father's love, like Jesus did, and to stay in Jesus love, then I am well kept, and the fear and trembling does not last forever, or becomes much more bearable, when I love God.
I had a lazy morning today and did not go to church, but God told me today that I should make sure to be in church and worship God next sunday, and He wasn't harsh with me. I love God's presence now, I realize when He is there and when He is not. It's wonderful, to see how God is a "person" - and much more than that, that God has a soul and manifests himself to me so that I can handle. And I also realize like John said that keeping God's commandments isn't grievous. After all, all the little details of Leviticus don't apply to me anymore, and I find everything in the New Testament, and it's all not so hard. The only trouble I still have is with relationship to women - I want to marry and have a nice quiet life with her, but I don't want to choose the wrong partner and then be bound to someone that I can't love - though I guess this is very proud of me to think so, cuz God doesn't send me someone that is impossible to love, when I don't ask for this, at least, God wants to do me good.
There is such a strong peace here, and like Paul said, it transcends all reason. Thank you Father God, thank you Christ also, thank you Holy Spirit ... for loving me, for your mercy, for making yourself known to me like you have done, and for your forgiveness. I wanna tell you always, please direct my thoughts, let no evil thoughts dwell in me.
I had a lazy morning today and did not go to church, but God told me today that I should make sure to be in church and worship God next sunday, and He wasn't harsh with me. I love God's presence now, I realize when He is there and when He is not. It's wonderful, to see how God is a "person" - and much more than that, that God has a soul and manifests himself to me so that I can handle. And I also realize like John said that keeping God's commandments isn't grievous. After all, all the little details of Leviticus don't apply to me anymore, and I find everything in the New Testament, and it's all not so hard. The only trouble I still have is with relationship to women - I want to marry and have a nice quiet life with her, but I don't want to choose the wrong partner and then be bound to someone that I can't love - though I guess this is very proud of me to think so, cuz God doesn't send me someone that is impossible to love, when I don't ask for this, at least, God wants to do me good.
There is such a strong peace here, and like Paul said, it transcends all reason. Thank you Father God, thank you Christ also, thank you Holy Spirit ... for loving me, for your mercy, for making yourself known to me like you have done, and for your forgiveness. I wanna tell you always, please direct my thoughts, let no evil thoughts dwell in me.