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I decided to give up the smokes. It was always a bad idea to do it. It's delivering my lungs and will in time relief me from all anxiety, to have done away with it. The spirit world is forbidden terrain, we should not go there willingly, we got nothing to earn from it but obfuscation of the truth. It was my atheism, the thinking that anything is meant to be explored and enjoyed equally, that made me misunderstand this. Thank God it got replaced with christianity, and I think that even my youthful curiousity isn't bad anymore once I put it into the service of Christ. To see the lifes of people that have been changed, the successes of Christ and the converted ones. But all glory to God! Pride is a bitch to relinquish, always comes back in some form, but I still want it totally gone. But then comes the sleezy thought that mere existence is pride, though it isn't there when God draws near. But only God knows the hearts and knows when it is there.
I have some small trouble with unclean spirits lately, I experience them as a stench that is extremely unpleasant. No wonder that Christ wants us delivered from them. If anyone who draws near to an unclean spirit would smell the stench, many would change their ways. Evil spirits, on the other hand, don't seem to have that stench. There are also some good spirits, it seems, and of course God's spirit is good, but the power of the good spirits is small and God has decreed that we may serve only Him, because He is the Lord of Hosts, and anything else that makes Him God. Mankind's useless battle against Him .. worthless. Right now this unclean spirit is with me here at the screen. Today in the morning he made me think my whole room is unclean, that's how confusing the spirit world is, cuz they confuse our childlike minds. For eon's we've labored with this, not knowing the spirits, until Christ released us from bondage to them. Satan's spirit is another thing, for it has a brightness of sorts, and it takes time to learn God's brightness to know Satan's blindness. But well, Satan has always been our soul's old enemy, ticking us away from the pleasure of being in God. It humbles, we knew the Son, and we give it away for Satan's glory. My hands are tied, I can't write the way I wish, it disturbs me so much that I feel the son's glory but still give so much away to Satan's despise. I wish it were different, that the Son's glory would fill the whole world, including the Father's glory, but that can only be done by God, not by us .. or do you have an idea? Human ambition, would it not sway us again? What if we would all be offered a perfect world under God, with no Satan, would we not do the first sin again, and then the next, etc, until it's all again there, murder, crime, senseless hatred, child rape, sin, sin, sin? Nah, we need to make the difficult step to heaven until we are healed from the inclination to do evil. We can't do Satan right, it wouldn't do us any good. If only I had never gotten in touch with Him, the evil one, it tempts me even now, but if I continue to resist this will give me character and the devil must flee. Had I Satan within me now? Damn, all the world thinks I'm "just" schizophrenic while it's all Satan's game. He mends minds, instills needs, crooks pleasure until minds are bent, needs are served and pleasure's spent.
The more I go on in the net around this time the more I think I'm like Saul, that my old ambitiousness made God send me evil spirits to tame and unclean spirits to be confused as to the what for. I could have become a king with all my knowledge, but I don't want. Christian purity is different, and I want to gain it. I was wanting to write, "Christianity purity is different, and I want to be with God" .. but the latter part seemed as if Satan wrote it. There is no simple play for me anymore, I don't want to become an evil "god", so to speak, a deed of Satan, an empty follower of sin. I want to be a humble christian saint, and nothing else, the deep things are nothing for me, I got to know Christ. What is knowledge when I didn't receive it from God, but from myself? The good knowledge in me is shielded from Satan, when I am good Satan can't prevent it, when I am with God, Satan can't enter. He tries to mess with me in the hope to gain an insight, something to use against God, but The Holy Spirit revealed how it will be, in the Revelations, so I know it will fail, though most likely it will be a tough fight. How that will all come about I don't know, of course I am human and wish humans good, but the evil times will come and that's how I must let it stand, as I can't prevent them. What else should I do? If I am a christian, I gotta believe in the Lord, and Satan's weird attempt at faking heaven shall not succeed. He split my mind, makes it tougher, emotionless, and each contact with God makes it better. What with Satan is a mad fear, with God is a holy fear, and it is painless to endure. The ancients knew it right, fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and appreciation of the Holy One is understanding. Fear and love .. with God it is right, with all these sects and cults it is wrong. No wonder that christianity is far different, it has the right cause. I wish I had a ciggie now but it's far too important that I stay clean and develop my spiritual mind so that my deeds are good. God wants the perfect and He shall get it. Grace to others is another thing.
I have some small trouble with unclean spirits lately, I experience them as a stench that is extremely unpleasant. No wonder that Christ wants us delivered from them. If anyone who draws near to an unclean spirit would smell the stench, many would change their ways. Evil spirits, on the other hand, don't seem to have that stench. There are also some good spirits, it seems, and of course God's spirit is good, but the power of the good spirits is small and God has decreed that we may serve only Him, because He is the Lord of Hosts, and anything else that makes Him God. Mankind's useless battle against Him .. worthless. Right now this unclean spirit is with me here at the screen. Today in the morning he made me think my whole room is unclean, that's how confusing the spirit world is, cuz they confuse our childlike minds. For eon's we've labored with this, not knowing the spirits, until Christ released us from bondage to them. Satan's spirit is another thing, for it has a brightness of sorts, and it takes time to learn God's brightness to know Satan's blindness. But well, Satan has always been our soul's old enemy, ticking us away from the pleasure of being in God. It humbles, we knew the Son, and we give it away for Satan's glory. My hands are tied, I can't write the way I wish, it disturbs me so much that I feel the son's glory but still give so much away to Satan's despise. I wish it were different, that the Son's glory would fill the whole world, including the Father's glory, but that can only be done by God, not by us .. or do you have an idea? Human ambition, would it not sway us again? What if we would all be offered a perfect world under God, with no Satan, would we not do the first sin again, and then the next, etc, until it's all again there, murder, crime, senseless hatred, child rape, sin, sin, sin? Nah, we need to make the difficult step to heaven until we are healed from the inclination to do evil. We can't do Satan right, it wouldn't do us any good. If only I had never gotten in touch with Him, the evil one, it tempts me even now, but if I continue to resist this will give me character and the devil must flee. Had I Satan within me now? Damn, all the world thinks I'm "just" schizophrenic while it's all Satan's game. He mends minds, instills needs, crooks pleasure until minds are bent, needs are served and pleasure's spent.
The more I go on in the net around this time the more I think I'm like Saul, that my old ambitiousness made God send me evil spirits to tame and unclean spirits to be confused as to the what for. I could have become a king with all my knowledge, but I don't want. Christian purity is different, and I want to gain it. I was wanting to write, "Christianity purity is different, and I want to be with God" .. but the latter part seemed as if Satan wrote it. There is no simple play for me anymore, I don't want to become an evil "god", so to speak, a deed of Satan, an empty follower of sin. I want to be a humble christian saint, and nothing else, the deep things are nothing for me, I got to know Christ. What is knowledge when I didn't receive it from God, but from myself? The good knowledge in me is shielded from Satan, when I am good Satan can't prevent it, when I am with God, Satan can't enter. He tries to mess with me in the hope to gain an insight, something to use against God, but The Holy Spirit revealed how it will be, in the Revelations, so I know it will fail, though most likely it will be a tough fight. How that will all come about I don't know, of course I am human and wish humans good, but the evil times will come and that's how I must let it stand, as I can't prevent them. What else should I do? If I am a christian, I gotta believe in the Lord, and Satan's weird attempt at faking heaven shall not succeed. He split my mind, makes it tougher, emotionless, and each contact with God makes it better. What with Satan is a mad fear, with God is a holy fear, and it is painless to endure. The ancients knew it right, fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and appreciation of the Holy One is understanding. Fear and love .. with God it is right, with all these sects and cults it is wrong. No wonder that christianity is far different, it has the right cause. I wish I had a ciggie now but it's far too important that I stay clean and develop my spiritual mind so that my deeds are good. God wants the perfect and He shall get it. Grace to others is another thing.