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It's been what seems like a long time; I haven't updated since 2009!
I feel like I've grown so much as a person. I've disconnected myself from a lot of people who I thought were friends. People who never really justify the meaning of friendship. They were never really there when in need, only to party or when they need something. Good riddance.
Vey and I are still going strong. We have our ups and downs but what relationship doesn't? There are times where I can't stand him and there are other times where I just want to kiss him and smother him with love. We communicate, we trust each other, and we understand each other (sometimes, haha). We never restrained one another from doing what we want and/or love, which is one of the reasons why I appreciate him. With all that's said, I still can't find myself to say "I love you" to him. It's going on three years this year and never once have I uttered those words. I've seek professional counseling in the past year and came to realize I had a lot of buried feelings from the past (before Vey). Feelings and memories that I suppressed through alcohol, drugs, sex, etc., anything that made me numb. I admit, I was careless and reckless at one point until him. I've calmed down with the party life and with doing so, I've gotten in touch with my inner feelings. I thank him for being so patient with me. I think we're headed down the right path :)
I underwent surgery in Summer 2010. One of the scariest thing I've ever went through. Two years of tests and unexpected/random chest pains/heart attack-like symptoms finally went away. I had my gallbladder removed. I was told it's common but just being under the knife for a couple hours is pretty scary knowing that you have no control of what will happen. Also, having to fill out my will? I'm way too young for this! But then again, tomorrow is never promised. Now I have four ugly scars on my abdomen.
Life is only getting better and I'm pretty excited to see what's headed my way. Hope all is well.
Narin
I feel like I've grown so much as a person. I've disconnected myself from a lot of people who I thought were friends. People who never really justify the meaning of friendship. They were never really there when in need, only to party or when they need something. Good riddance.
Vey and I are still going strong. We have our ups and downs but what relationship doesn't? There are times where I can't stand him and there are other times where I just want to kiss him and smother him with love. We communicate, we trust each other, and we understand each other (sometimes, haha). We never restrained one another from doing what we want and/or love, which is one of the reasons why I appreciate him. With all that's said, I still can't find myself to say "I love you" to him. It's going on three years this year and never once have I uttered those words. I've seek professional counseling in the past year and came to realize I had a lot of buried feelings from the past (before Vey). Feelings and memories that I suppressed through alcohol, drugs, sex, etc., anything that made me numb. I admit, I was careless and reckless at one point until him. I've calmed down with the party life and with doing so, I've gotten in touch with my inner feelings. I thank him for being so patient with me. I think we're headed down the right path :)
I underwent surgery in Summer 2010. One of the scariest thing I've ever went through. Two years of tests and unexpected/random chest pains/heart attack-like symptoms finally went away. I had my gallbladder removed. I was told it's common but just being under the knife for a couple hours is pretty scary knowing that you have no control of what will happen. Also, having to fill out my will? I'm way too young for this! But then again, tomorrow is never promised. Now I have four ugly scars on my abdomen.
Life is only getting better and I'm pretty excited to see what's headed my way. Hope all is well.
Narin