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[nari1031]

hmmmmmmmmm... so... i love procrastinating... ive decided to take my psych final... that was supposed to be my frieken EASY class... wth happened?!?!?! frieken piece of poo... =( one question wrong and its frieken 3% of ur frieken grade... bleh~ oh well... no more complaining for me... why am i here right??? hehe... i cant believe freshmen year is almost over... WTH?!?!?!?!?! daaaaaaaaaaaaang... learned a crap load this year... and people were right... the stupid academics dont matter... its the experience of college that will stay with you... new friends who teach you more about YOURSELF... new experiences... new way to think about things... revelations about life and the world that we live in... this was definitely the year of self-discovery for me... i learned things about myself that i want to change... ive changed some parts, but i still have a long ways to go... some of the guys that i hang wit always ask me why i havent been interested in any guyz yet/interested in seeing anyone right now... i could take the easy way out and say that i just havent met any that im interested in yet... which is partially true... but maybe i just havent let myself see anyone in that way yet... i dun really wanna start anything w/ anyone until i have some sense of who I AM first... doesnt that make sense though? how can someone else get to kno me, if im always changing/if i dont know who i am yet? i know ill always be changing, and it WILL take me a lifetime to "get to know myself," but i just want a little more time to myself, and more time w/ God... i think thats the best for me right now... i KNOW thats the best for me right now... and you know what? i have no problem w/ that... it DOES get lonely once in a while... especially since my group of girls are damn attractive and there always seem to be guys interested in ONE of them... Glorriane w/ her boyfriend... 'tina and her many admirers.. hehehe... judy w/ her ENDLESS and i mean frieken ENDLESS crushes... and jurema w/ her "infatuations" and her stalker-like behaviors ... kekekeke... but u know what??? its a conscious decision that i have made for myself... in the meantime... ill juss stay the sappy-ass hopeless romantic with a realist mentality... and no... i dunno how those two things work together k? they just do... hehe...
back to studying... missing you guys like CRAZY... byeeeee