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i thought i would post again before i leave for vacation. leaving friday morning (i think) for buffalo. for my brother's national tournament again, hopefully watching a lot of hot bowlers again this year. not really excited though cause i'm gonna be a third wheel sort of. my parents, and then my brother and his girlfriend, then just me.. woo. hopefully won't be too bad i'm still skeptical but i'm trying to be optimistic. one good thing is probably going to some bars in canada with my david and sara which will probably be a good time. plus, i get twelve days off of work so i'm not complaining, lol.
it's pretty funny how much things can change in just a year. i feel like i'm a better person now, i'm more independent for sure. i'm learning a lot more about myself lately too. it's funny how last year was a pretty strange year but still was good for the most part. this year has been completely opposite. i miss a lot of things about being younger, i miss just being happy with being able to stay out until 12 and hanging out with my friends and the crew every so often. it seems like everyone is drifting apart. i miss being able stay up all night and sleep all day, i kind of resent the people who can still do that. i've been trying to overcome a lot of personal challenges, and learning to deal with a lot of stressful stuff at home. i've been working on trying to overcome my anxiety problems, i learned about progressive relaxation yesterday which i plan to practice more it's pretty nice.
autumn's getting so big, i should probably post some pictures on here eventually. she's a little brat (sometimes, not too bad though) but of course i still love her. although i've never really felt the need to have kids, just from watching her grow up i see how rewarding having kids could be. but i'm still not totally convinced lol. anyway, i guess that's about it. i'll be back from buffalo like the 13-14 something like that.
it's pretty funny how much things can change in just a year. i feel like i'm a better person now, i'm more independent for sure. i'm learning a lot more about myself lately too. it's funny how last year was a pretty strange year but still was good for the most part. this year has been completely opposite. i miss a lot of things about being younger, i miss just being happy with being able to stay out until 12 and hanging out with my friends and the crew every so often. it seems like everyone is drifting apart. i miss being able stay up all night and sleep all day, i kind of resent the people who can still do that. i've been trying to overcome a lot of personal challenges, and learning to deal with a lot of stressful stuff at home. i've been working on trying to overcome my anxiety problems, i learned about progressive relaxation yesterday which i plan to practice more it's pretty nice.
autumn's getting so big, i should probably post some pictures on here eventually. she's a little brat (sometimes, not too bad though) but of course i still love her. although i've never really felt the need to have kids, just from watching her grow up i see how rewarding having kids could be. but i'm still not totally convinced lol. anyway, i guess that's about it. i'll be back from buffalo like the 13-14 something like that.