I felt cheap, and I would've felt that way no matter who the next guy was. Kim was my second, in my life, with a guy. When we were with each other it changed some shit in me, maybe some chemical. When he told me what he did, I felt like one pretty moment, and that he'd moved on to the next. It's not fair that I felt that way. I fuck around with women all the time - I have since I was a small kid. But it still hurt when I first heard, just to think it probably wasn't the same with him, to sleep with another man.
With me.
Then he went and took all those pills and I don't know what to think now. I told him to get rid of me when I started to kill him. He's gotta do that.
Get rid of me.
And Jae .. you don't owe me an apology. It was that feeling, not you, that hurt me, and now I wish I could take that feeling back because I don't want him to be like this. I don't want you to be upset. I don't want this shit between us. I love you, and I wish you were here. I'd give you the kind of hug you can still remember when you're sixty.
We should run away to like, Tibet or someplace and you write music and I'll sing. Like on top of a mountain somewhere. It's like, the closer people get, the more horrible things get >< WHY!? I want need to get away before I die kill myself.
I don't want any shit between us either. God knows there's enough between everyone else >< I really think it's him that's confused though, not you that's killing him. :( You don't kill <3 You're sunshine, neh.
Well, you don't kill me. That's what I go by. Maybe it's closed-minded but I don't care ><
Some people just... burn too easily.
I'd live for that hug, man :X I need to stop breaking down... I... ended up telling Kim all this stuff. Ugh. >< I don't think he understood :( I don't think anyone could... except maybe you.
Everything hurts. The only thing that doesn't is you <3
'Thank you', 'I miss you', and 'I love you' don't cut it.
With me.
Then he went and took all those pills and I don't know what to think now. I told him to get rid of me when I started to kill him. He's gotta do that.
Get rid of me.
And Jae .. you don't owe me an apology. It was that feeling, not you, that hurt me, and now I wish I could take that feeling back because I don't want him to be like this. I don't want you to be upset. I don't want this shit between us. I love you, and I wish you were here. I'd give you the kind of hug you can still remember when you're sixty.
I miss you so much.. <3
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I don't want any shit between us either. God knows there's enough between everyone else >< I really think it's him that's confused though, not you that's killing him. :( You don't kill <3 You're sunshine, neh.
Well, you don't kill me. That's what I go by. Maybe it's closed-minded but I don't care ><
Some people just... burn too easily.
I'd live for that hug, man :X I need to stop breaking down... I... ended up telling Kim all this stuff. Ugh. >< I don't think he understood :( I don't think anyone could... except maybe you.
Everything hurts. The only thing that doesn't is you <3
'Thank you', 'I miss you', and 'I love you' don't cut it.
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[ the download is at the bottom <3 ]
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