The lingering stench...
Just a short entry to collate some of my mulling thoughts and unsettling emotions.
Feeling real lousy emotionally today.
Guess 2013 wasn't that a clean slate after all.
What do you do when you tried all kinds of means and ways to rid yourself of some(one), but to no avail?
Desperate times call for desperate measures. I honestly don't know what to do next...
I am almost at my breaking point, like a branch ready to snap. Bloody hell.
At times like this, I feel most unclean :(
I can still taste the livid indignation, the moments of outbursts where I lost my temper and let loose a string of words my cell group friends would be ashamed of. The building wrath i kept suppressed within me threatens to tide over once again...this almost uncontrollable feeling isn't pleasant.
The feeling to want to crush someone completely... (let's just say it involves some really bad actions and bad thoughts).
I couldn't be anymore unrighteous then and there. Haiz :(((
But at what cost, Mell?
You know who you are in Christ. You won't let this pathetic loser ruin every progress you made so far.
He is so not worth it la.
For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
Still....the lingering stench of the aftermath haunts me. The hurt and pain i inflicted hurt me instead.
"Sometimes when you win, you really lose, and sometimes when you lose, you really win, and sometimes when you win or lose, you actually tie, and sometimes when you tie, you actually win or lose."
I lost. There is no such thing as an eye for an eye.
Ok time to wash this shit away. There will be better days tomorrow.
Feeling real lousy emotionally today.
Guess 2013 wasn't that a clean slate after all.
What do you do when you tried all kinds of means and ways to rid yourself of some(one), but to no avail?
Desperate times call for desperate measures. I honestly don't know what to do next...
I am almost at my breaking point, like a branch ready to snap. Bloody hell.
At times like this, I feel most unclean :(
I can still taste the livid indignation, the moments of outbursts where I lost my temper and let loose a string of words my cell group friends would be ashamed of. The building wrath i kept suppressed within me threatens to tide over once again...this almost uncontrollable feeling isn't pleasant.
The feeling to want to crush someone completely... (let's just say it involves some really bad actions and bad thoughts).
I couldn't be anymore unrighteous then and there. Haiz :(((
But at what cost, Mell?
You know who you are in Christ. You won't let this pathetic loser ruin every progress you made so far.
He is so not worth it la.
For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.
Still....the lingering stench of the aftermath haunts me. The hurt and pain i inflicted hurt me instead.
"Sometimes when you win, you really lose, and sometimes when you lose, you really win, and sometimes when you win or lose, you actually tie, and sometimes when you tie, you actually win or lose."
I lost. There is no such thing as an eye for an eye.
Ok time to wash this shit away. There will be better days tomorrow.