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Man. Midnight Love is playing some older joints. That's tight. That's pretty much the only regular program I really like on there. Sometimes I can stomach Comic View, but that's real iffy with me too.
Yeah so I go to H-E-B with the girl who braids my hair and we see Sister 2 Sister magazine with Mase on it. I picked it up cause on the real his coming back has mystified me since I heard it. Okay yeah so I intended to read his article and end up on this other one about brothers on the Down Low.
I am officially disgusted. Let me tell you why... cause the man in the article said it was purely about satisfication. That these men don't even consider themselves gay and would NEVER be in a relationship with another man. It's just about the sex. And then I thought about this...
But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 3unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away! For of this sort are those who creep into households and make captives of gullible women loaded down with sins, led away by various lusts, 7always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. 8Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, disapproved concerning the faith; 9but they will progress no further, for their folly will be manifest to all, as theirs also was.
And keep in mind this talking about people who call themselves Christian. Like I was SO surprised when he was talking about how dudes in the church be doing that. I was like what??? He said this one guy told him a preacher dicked him down in the office and then had the audicity to preach on homosexuality and how they'd run any in the church out for being that way.
I'm a Christian. I believe the Bible is the word of God. I believe that it's the guidelines of how I should live my life. Though I am far from a saint, I don't lie act like I am. I have faults and things the Lord is dealing with me about. I don't label them as strongholds that I can't be delivered from with the grace of God and I don't expect anybody to beat me over the head with them either.
I have a big problem when people label me 'religious'. Cause there is a BIG difference between being 'religious' and having a relationship with God. Religious folk put Jesus on the cross in the name of religion. So you can keep your religion. That's why the Church is so sick right now. Cause so many people feel like if that LOOK holy, ACT holy... then people are gonna deem them holy. And that just ain't cutting it buddy.
I have become so frustrated with the world today... and I know I shouldn't be. God said that these things are gonna happen in the end times. I've gotten so laxed with my relationship with Christ to the point that I am almost indifferent and that has never been me. He's done so much for me, I cannot even believe the way I've carried on in the last what? TWO YEARS?
And yeah people say, you're a good girl. Your a virgin, you go to church, you don't get in trouble. But that ain't shit to me if I ain't livin' the way God has intended me to live. And when you KNOW better and you don't do better, well then your punishment is that much greater. And I believe that's why I feel like I've almost hit bottom, why everyday I'm desperate for a reason for living. I am tired.
I know people are looking at this like WTF, where did this come from? Well I don't know. It's possible it was inspired by God, and if I was walking as close to him as I should, I'd be able to tell you. I'm going to be 25 next week. And I've started to realize that the we really don't have another day until God gives it to us. If He decided to call me home tomorrow will He say 'Good job, my faithful servant?' or is He gonna be like, 'Here let me get some febreze so you can get that smoke smell out cha robe.' Nah... I don't want that for me...
This gonna be my last public entry. If you want me to add you as a friend. Let me know. If you hate me now because of this post and want to delete me I understand that too. I am gonna go to bed now so I can wake up in the morning, check my bank account and see if tomorrow's the day I quit my job. Goodnight and God bless...
Yeah so I go to H-E-B with the girl who braids my hair and we see Sister 2 Sister magazine with Mase on it. I picked it up cause on the real his coming back has mystified me since I heard it. Okay yeah so I intended to read his article and end up on this other one about brothers on the Down Low.
I am officially disgusted. Let me tell you why... cause the man in the article said it was purely about satisfication. That these men don't even consider themselves gay and would NEVER be in a relationship with another man. It's just about the sex. And then I thought about this...
But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, 3unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away! For of this sort are those who creep into households and make captives of gullible women loaded down with sins, led away by various lusts, 7always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. 8Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, disapproved concerning the faith; 9but they will progress no further, for their folly will be manifest to all, as theirs also was.
And keep in mind this talking about people who call themselves Christian. Like I was SO surprised when he was talking about how dudes in the church be doing that. I was like what??? He said this one guy told him a preacher dicked him down in the office and then had the audicity to preach on homosexuality and how they'd run any in the church out for being that way.
I'm a Christian. I believe the Bible is the word of God. I believe that it's the guidelines of how I should live my life. Though I am far from a saint, I don't lie act like I am. I have faults and things the Lord is dealing with me about. I don't label them as strongholds that I can't be delivered from with the grace of God and I don't expect anybody to beat me over the head with them either.
I have a big problem when people label me 'religious'. Cause there is a BIG difference between being 'religious' and having a relationship with God. Religious folk put Jesus on the cross in the name of religion. So you can keep your religion. That's why the Church is so sick right now. Cause so many people feel like if that LOOK holy, ACT holy... then people are gonna deem them holy. And that just ain't cutting it buddy.
I have become so frustrated with the world today... and I know I shouldn't be. God said that these things are gonna happen in the end times. I've gotten so laxed with my relationship with Christ to the point that I am almost indifferent and that has never been me. He's done so much for me, I cannot even believe the way I've carried on in the last what? TWO YEARS?
And yeah people say, you're a good girl. Your a virgin, you go to church, you don't get in trouble. But that ain't shit to me if I ain't livin' the way God has intended me to live. And when you KNOW better and you don't do better, well then your punishment is that much greater. And I believe that's why I feel like I've almost hit bottom, why everyday I'm desperate for a reason for living. I am tired.
I know people are looking at this like WTF, where did this come from? Well I don't know. It's possible it was inspired by God, and if I was walking as close to him as I should, I'd be able to tell you. I'm going to be 25 next week. And I've started to realize that the we really don't have another day until God gives it to us. If He decided to call me home tomorrow will He say 'Good job, my faithful servant?' or is He gonna be like, 'Here let me get some febreze so you can get that smoke smell out cha robe.' Nah... I don't want that for me...
This gonna be my last public entry. If you want me to add you as a friend. Let me know. If you hate me now because of this post and want to delete me I understand that too. I am gonna go to bed now so I can wake up in the morning, check my bank account and see if tomorrow's the day I quit my job. Goodnight and God bless...