Tired on a monday night, just enough energy to say FUCK YOU
WHA? what am I doing on someone's list of friends? I don't remember anything to show I was anyone's friend. I didn't authorize this friendship. How can it just happen when there's nothing to show I even have friends. I don't get asked anywhere, I'm not included with the people I want to be included with, no one goes out of their way just to interact with me. It seems people only involve themselves with me if it's convenient for them. My "friendships" don't go much past that. Now this is tolerable, but one thing gets me more than anything; when people don't like some part of my character, some mannerism, some habit about me yet they say nothing. Instead they try to avoid me when they are some of the only people I associate with. Now this is just plain FUCKING disrespectful. It gets to me so much. If you don't like me even as an acuaintance, than say so. Don't let me go on living A LIE. Stupid fuckers. So far I've been looking for a social group of my own and as of yet I have yet to find one. I am too far from the groups I want to be a part of and the groups I partially fit in I hate. As well I hate most of the people who are drawn to me. I've been told a girlfriend may help me. I can't see ever having a girlfriend, especially since I would like to be someone's friend before I'm their boyfriend and it seems as of late I just cant keep any friends. Well fuck. And to the people who call me their friend, either reconsider how you treat me or reconsider calling me your friend.