back to the beginning.
today i decided that my goal is to be teen national american miss. or fat teen of america miss maybe. looking for some hot stuff baby this evening. today i sat at the mall for over 6 hours. doing nothing. it wasn't that bad cuz i was with amanda and we saw ryan, brandon, alex, alex, a bunch of people, but best of all was david pickle. he's such a balla'. i should ask him to be my souldmate. saw jeff's ex-girlfriend there whom used to hate me when she was dating jeff, and she's smiled and waved at me like we were long lost friends or something. some people flabbergast me. hmm.. flabbergast. "i'm so stoopitttttt!" haha.. so jenna has been missing for like 3 days and we finally found her today. i was really pissed at her when i found out about something she lied about that made me look bad but i haven't really been in the mood for confrontations lately so i just kinda ignored it. it's really ironic how people judge other people by first impressions and then end up thinking of them TOTALLY different. that's how it was with me and jenna. i thought she was kinda weird and bitchy but now i LOVE her. same with these frehmen on the cheerleading team. they are so cute and funny. anyways.. today i got my picture taken with amanda at the mall.. and then my dad decided that he wanted a key chain with our faces on the front and our butts on the back so that people could flip it over and see both sides of us. haha i love my dad. btw, he is the dad of my entire cheerleading team. he's crazy. but like 3957 different people i knew walked by when we were bending over for the pose and it was just really akward. but funny too. ehhhhhh. i'm such a loser sitting home eating pizza on a friday night. and i want to be with SOMEONE but clearly he couldn't take a hint if i fucking jumped on him and said, "you're hott. i want to eff you." which is was someone actually advised me to say. nice nice. i'm bored. going to watch tommy boy! love ya!