05-11-05
So I havent updated in a while and I dont really know what to talk about because the only thing that has honestly happened to me was the shit on Mother's Day and that definately sucked. Of course you're suppose to spend Mother's Day with your um...mother? So what did I get to do? Go spend it with two people I hate the most currently in my life, my aunt and grama. They drive me nuts. And when you go to eat dinner at their house you have to do like a list of 40 chores to even get them to feed you. We figured (my dad, brother and I) that since we werent going to be the only ones going over there for dinner that we were safe and we wouldnt have any chores to do. But alas we did. We got to bring up the lawn chairs and take old washer and dryer up from downstairs and the list goes on. It flat out sucked. My brother hasnt really ever had to deal with it because he moved out a little after they moved into that place so it didnt really start until after he was gone. So he was pissed and annoyed and that added to how annoyed I was and then my dad went off on me =D. Wonderful I think. So I spent the whole day thinking about my mom and drew this drawing for her for Mother's Day and all but had nothing to give to my grama so I made a copy and gave it to her...which actually made me feel horrible later because it was for my mom and I just gave it to a woman that I hate. Made me feel truely wonderful. I dont really know though because it made me just hate everything actually. I wanted to go see my mom so badly but I didnt get to because I had to spend time with her family who annoys the fuck outta me, but I tried to seem decent and whenever they were talking I went off and found something new to do.
I really need to start working on my drawings but I highly doubt I'll find any time to work on that before I get outta school which makes me feel really bad since they're for people. I need to finish Emily's drawing for her, of her bf and her and I have it started along with Luke's drawing but I cant find time to work on them. Luke's is pretty much done which is good because he's been waiting a long time. Which makes me feel bad but I cant say Em hasnt been waiting a long time either. I have 3 projects due in the next 2 weeks, one which was already suppose to be done Monday and is due on the 19th and then my project for Military History which is this thing of a battlefield. Should be farely easy since my dad wants to help me on it then I have a project/presentation in Psych which is going to suck because I really really don't want to do it. As a matter of fact I dont want to do any of them. I'm really getting stressed out with this last 2 weeks of school, they arent as nice as everyone says they should, not that I expected much since this whole being a senior thing has only been hell for me. Well it wasnt that bad til after my mom died, then it went down hill. I'll do things to make my mom happy...I still go on that, thinking that "Hey this would make mom happy...I should do it" which includes my graduation party which I'm sure will be like living hell. My two sides of the family together...wonderful! But I'll be happy getting away from Clawson schools...it's just been a drag not being able to do what I want. I finally figured out what I really want to do. I'm not sure what I want my minor in but I know I definately want to do a major in art, drawing preferably but we'll see where it goes from there. My aunt said advertisement would be good but we'll see...I just want to get the next two months over and I'll be happy because I'll be with Josh. Which I cant wait for mind you! I'm so happy I'm gonna get to spend like two months with him <3. I've missed being with him so much and I wish I hadnt fucked up and he could come for spring break...but I dont know Josh would tell me not to worry about it so I try not to...well I'm gonna go work on something, who the fuck knows what. Sorry Luke and Em for not getting the drawings done for you sooner, I promise I'm working on them >.< Bye all I love you.
I really need to start working on my drawings but I highly doubt I'll find any time to work on that before I get outta school which makes me feel really bad since they're for people. I need to finish Emily's drawing for her, of her bf and her and I have it started along with Luke's drawing but I cant find time to work on them. Luke's is pretty much done which is good because he's been waiting a long time. Which makes me feel bad but I cant say Em hasnt been waiting a long time either. I have 3 projects due in the next 2 weeks, one which was already suppose to be done Monday and is due on the 19th and then my project for Military History which is this thing of a battlefield. Should be farely easy since my dad wants to help me on it then I have a project/presentation in Psych which is going to suck because I really really don't want to do it. As a matter of fact I dont want to do any of them. I'm really getting stressed out with this last 2 weeks of school, they arent as nice as everyone says they should, not that I expected much since this whole being a senior thing has only been hell for me. Well it wasnt that bad til after my mom died, then it went down hill. I'll do things to make my mom happy...I still go on that, thinking that "Hey this would make mom happy...I should do it" which includes my graduation party which I'm sure will be like living hell. My two sides of the family together...wonderful! But I'll be happy getting away from Clawson schools...it's just been a drag not being able to do what I want. I finally figured out what I really want to do. I'm not sure what I want my minor in but I know I definately want to do a major in art, drawing preferably but we'll see where it goes from there. My aunt said advertisement would be good but we'll see...I just want to get the next two months over and I'll be happy because I'll be with Josh. Which I cant wait for mind you! I'm so happy I'm gonna get to spend like two months with him <3. I've missed being with him so much and I wish I hadnt fucked up and he could come for spring break...but I dont know Josh would tell me not to worry about it so I try not to...well I'm gonna go work on something, who the fuck knows what. Sorry Luke and Em for not getting the drawings done for you sooner, I promise I'm working on them >.< Bye all I love you.