Indifferent
I am extremely indifferent as well as alone right now. I can't even find a song to sum it all up, and I am even too uninspired to write. On top of that I am even more stressed out with getting all of my stuff for school done for next year, so that I will actually have a college to attend.
The more I think about it the more I feel like, maybe it is better this way. Maybe I am supposed to be alone. Next year I will be in a new city with new opportunities and new people. However, I can't help but to be a little pessimistic about it. I feel like maybe of all those people in that big city, not one will be for me. I have such trouble even approaching people because of all my trama when I was younger. I know I have come such a long way, nearly full circle from where I was a couple of years ago... but still, I have such a problem trying to talk to new people, and make friends without them speaking to me first. I am just afraid that I am still that young awkward little girl, that I used to be. I feel like maybe I had never changed at all.
On a brighter side, I go for my interview tomorrow.
I hope they don't rip me to shreads.
The more I think about it the more I feel like, maybe it is better this way. Maybe I am supposed to be alone. Next year I will be in a new city with new opportunities and new people. However, I can't help but to be a little pessimistic about it. I feel like maybe of all those people in that big city, not one will be for me. I have such trouble even approaching people because of all my trama when I was younger. I know I have come such a long way, nearly full circle from where I was a couple of years ago... but still, I have such a problem trying to talk to new people, and make friends without them speaking to me first. I am just afraid that I am still that young awkward little girl, that I used to be. I feel like maybe I had never changed at all.
On a brighter side, I go for my interview tomorrow.
I hope they don't rip me to shreads.