i need a hug, too
I have noticed that a lot of people confide in me. And its not even small stuff like who they have a crush on or something stupid like that. No, it has to be things like the supscion of my cousin that shes pregnant, despite the fact that she drink and smokes. And not only cigarretes, eh. And how my best friend was almost raped by this jerk, and how he is now appartnley stalking her, doubly hurtful with the obvious problems she has with her family. Oh, and how could I forget, my other friend, who apart from harboring a strong intense hatred and desire to strangle her brother and his pregnant girlfriend, is going to be abondoned by her mom. and she has plans to commit suicide once she turns 18. I dont know what to do. I dont know wheter to keep quiet, ignore it, just focus on my life. I dont want to, but I promised them I wouldnt say anything. I dont know what to think anymore. I sometimes just feel like breaking down, and spilling everything. Sometimes I feel like just shaking my cousin and telling her "stop ruining your life. Your 17 now, you should be acting like it." I sometimes feel like calling the police and sending them after the jerk who attemped against my best friend. I also feel like shaking my other friend and telling her to stop being so damn cynical and to try, just try to look for the good things in life. To stope harboring that hate, feeding it like she does, and to talk to her dad. Try to live your life, damn it. It was a gift from God. I know you dont believe in God, but I dont care. Just try. And while I have never had any major problems besides the fact that my Mom is currentley pregnant, I know what sadness feels like, what hate and fear and anger are like. I have learned to accept things and move on. Please try to do the same,girls. The only thing I can do now, is listen and be ther for you. I honestley love you guys, but seriously, you are killing me here.