Apr 15, 2005 19:17
HMM..seem to have lost the pics I posted the other day....
Anyway...
Been busy. Yesterday Josh and Maggie had their first speach
therapy TOGETHER-not crazy about that idea but hey-wth do I know
right?? Josh did okay I guess-same old same old...I was a little
miffed when she handed us the goal sheet for the next few months.
they just seem to be focusing on making Josh talk-you would have to
read how it is worded-I can't explain it but it is like they are
assuming we aren't working hard enough. Oh hell maybe I am just
being ultra sensitive-who knows. Anyway after kelley left Bethany
and her brood woun't leave. don't get me wrong I really like her
but all day is too long to spend with someone. She stayed and ate
dinner with us-walked up the butcher shop and bought us steaks to BBQ
and then I made the fixings. All hell broke loose just after 6pm
when we had 5 very tired crankly kids all under age 5...it was a
zoo. She finally took everyone home and I cleaned up and my 3
were in bed by 7-thank the lord. I sat and read and then watched
survivor...someone please tell me why I am so addicted to these stupid
shows??
Once again got smacked in the head about Christine's wedding. I
hadn't mentioned before but we have been left out of prettty much
everything-the kids aren't in the wedding nor are kevin or I, we
weren't asked to help with any planning and have been completely
ignored. Which frankly I don't understand why is hurting me so
much. I should be happy about it. i mean I always KNEW I
wouldn't be in her wedding party-gosh no-a fat person in her wedding
pictures? My god the world would end. But then yesterday Joyce
calls to say she would make sure we got invited to the bridal
shower-WTF?? Why would anyone have to make sure?? Why wouldn't I
automatically be invited to the GD shower?? Oh and we weren't
invited to the groom's parents do either-Joyce tried to play up the
pity vote and said she would ask if we could go ...you know what-don't
freaking bother..I am just NOT Interested. Christine herself
hasn't bothered to call us about anything just hearing this all from
Joyce.
I am just so miffed about the whole GD thing-I can't even begin to tell
you. And this is going to sound completely childish i know but I
am insanely enraged that all her life she was catered to and had a very
easy road to hoe and now is marrying into money will have a life with
all the extras and go on her merry way while Kevin and I have had to
struggle for absolutely everything we have ever had-for the last 13
years. We must have been very very bad in some former life I
guess. I know I am supposed to be grateful for what I have,
and I am..but I can't help but feel those pangs of jealousy when
someone who has done nothing to deserve allthe goodness she recieves
keeps living the high life.
Oh I am bitter tonight.
Tomorrow I have Maggie James and Jessie from 9-1 because Bethany has
some sort of thing to do with her mother. I wish I had said
no-James drives me bonkers with his whining.
Until next time.....