Could i be any more bitter?

Apr 15, 2005 19:17

HMM..seem to have lost the pics I posted the other day....

Anyway...

Been busy.  Yesterday Josh and Maggie had their first speach therapy TOGETHER-not crazy about that idea but hey-wth do I know right??  Josh did okay I guess-same old same old...I was a little miffed when she handed us the goal sheet for the next few months.  they just seem to be focusing on making Josh talk-you would have to read how it is worded-I can't explain it but it is like they are assuming we aren't working hard enough.  Oh hell maybe I am just being ultra sensitive-who knows.  Anyway after kelley left Bethany and her brood woun't leave.  don't get me wrong I really like her but all day is too long to spend with someone.  She stayed and ate dinner with us-walked up the butcher shop and bought us steaks to BBQ and then I made the fixings.  All hell broke loose just after 6pm when we had 5 very tired crankly kids all under age 5...it was a zoo.  She finally took everyone home and I cleaned up and my 3 were in bed by 7-thank the lord. I sat and read and then watched survivor...someone please tell me why I am so addicted to these stupid shows??

Once again got smacked in the head about Christine's wedding.  I hadn't mentioned before but we have been left out of prettty much everything-the kids aren't in the wedding nor are kevin or I, we weren't asked to help with any planning and have been completely ignored.  Which frankly I don't understand why is hurting me so much.  I should be happy about it.  i mean I always KNEW I wouldn't be in her wedding party-gosh no-a fat person in her wedding pictures? My god the world would end.  But then yesterday Joyce calls to say she would make sure we got invited to the bridal shower-WTF??  Why would anyone have to make sure?? Why wouldn't I automatically be invited to the GD shower??  Oh and we weren't invited to the groom's parents do either-Joyce tried to play up the pity vote and said she would ask if we could go ...you know what-don't freaking bother..I am just NOT Interested.  Christine herself hasn't bothered to call us about anything just hearing this all from Joyce.

I am just so miffed about the whole GD thing-I can't even begin to tell you.  And this is going to sound completely childish i know but I am insanely enraged that all her life she was catered to and had a very easy road to hoe and now is marrying into money will have a life with all the extras and go on her merry way while Kevin and I have had to struggle for absolutely everything we have ever had-for the last 13 years.  We must have been very very bad in some former life I guess.  I know I am  supposed to be grateful for what I have, and I am..but I can't help but feel those pangs of jealousy when someone who has done nothing to deserve allthe goodness she recieves keeps living the high life.

Oh I am bitter tonight.

Tomorrow I have Maggie James and Jessie from 9-1 because Bethany has some sort of thing to do with her mother.  I wish I had said no-James drives me bonkers with his whining.

Until next time.....
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