well lets start...
A really good friend of mine told me that I should express how I feel more often and to be honest I don’t like to show it… I don’t know why…, but I do like to write and so she told me that this medium is a good idea to express how I feel or what I think and well why not? It will take away my stress a lil bit… you know like therapy I guess.
And speaking of feelings I’ve been feeling kind of down lately. I’ve been thinking about my life and how it has been changing ever since my dad passed away which is, I think one of the most important events in my life that marked me forever. Death makes you think, and when it hits you all of a sudden, you see life different.. So different that you become more aware of those little things that are not to noticeable in life, but then again are so beautiful and they are now the most important ones that you can’t live with out. Yeah I guess all of you know all that coz almost everyone has been close or know someone that has had a death in the family, but what happens with the other feelings.. Yeah like why did it happened to me?,… or what good can you find of this so called “lesson of life”? or in better words the “circle of life” A lot of them that is for sure…but sometimes you just don’t want to see them or you don’t care you are just full of confusion and rage. Yeah I know…. He is still with me… I know I can feel it but it’s still not fair, it’s really not.
And also, if it’s not enough, at the same time I’m trying to figure out my own life… I know its going to be hard especially if my Mother doesn’t support me in my career that I’ve chose… (Yeah I know thanks a lot) but I will show her that I can do it and that not only doctors can get high in life… I will show her even if I have to do it by my self… it is my dream and I won’t give it up for anything. I have to stop sacrificing my happiness.
And speaking of feelings I’ve been feeling kind of down lately. I’ve been thinking about my life and how it has been changing ever since my dad passed away which is, I think one of the most important events in my life that marked me forever. Death makes you think, and when it hits you all of a sudden, you see life different.. So different that you become more aware of those little things that are not to noticeable in life, but then again are so beautiful and they are now the most important ones that you can’t live with out. Yeah I guess all of you know all that coz almost everyone has been close or know someone that has had a death in the family, but what happens with the other feelings.. Yeah like why did it happened to me?,… or what good can you find of this so called “lesson of life”? or in better words the “circle of life” A lot of them that is for sure…but sometimes you just don’t want to see them or you don’t care you are just full of confusion and rage. Yeah I know…. He is still with me… I know I can feel it but it’s still not fair, it’s really not.
And also, if it’s not enough, at the same time I’m trying to figure out my own life… I know its going to be hard especially if my Mother doesn’t support me in my career that I’ve chose… (Yeah I know thanks a lot) but I will show her that I can do it and that not only doctors can get high in life… I will show her even if I have to do it by my self… it is my dream and I won’t give it up for anything. I have to stop sacrificing my happiness.