Nothing's gunna change my world
...wow
Today was a lot of things I'm sure but i just cant really seem to figure them all out right now. I'm sure a lot of you knew this before i even did but Greg dumped me at lunch today. Yes, he did. Heh wow...I wouldn't mind at all I mean it is his choice but i just didnt understand his tone...I wanted to leave him...I admit it...i wanted to. And when I talked to him about it he told me I meant the world to him and told me how depressed he would be if i left...so i didnt...i didnt want him to feel the pain he described to me that night. I cared to much about him so i stayed. I stayed in spite of what all my friends told me to do...i stayed in spite of what my own sister, and hell my own parents told me to do. I threw aside my wants and needs. All for him to be happy.
So today...at the end of lunch he is upset i can see but why? because of what steph said? no. it was me. he simply says "Im dumping you...i was going to wait till after school but....Im just going to do it now. Your free...go do drugs...go fuck whoever you want" thats what i get from the person i cared about enough to throw away everything for his well being...there he is.
Needless to say i was not happy for the rest of the day, but after school i had to visit my dad at the hospital...nothing serious, just getting his appendix removed. It took all day and i just got home...I finally get a chance to think over today. And as i read back my entry i realize it wasnt that bad...I will be fine, i have my bestest friends that watch over me and cheer me up when i need it, and i want to thank them for it.
Today was a lot of things I'm sure but i just cant really seem to figure them all out right now. I'm sure a lot of you knew this before i even did but Greg dumped me at lunch today. Yes, he did. Heh wow...I wouldn't mind at all I mean it is his choice but i just didnt understand his tone...I wanted to leave him...I admit it...i wanted to. And when I talked to him about it he told me I meant the world to him and told me how depressed he would be if i left...so i didnt...i didnt want him to feel the pain he described to me that night. I cared to much about him so i stayed. I stayed in spite of what all my friends told me to do...i stayed in spite of what my own sister, and hell my own parents told me to do. I threw aside my wants and needs. All for him to be happy.
So today...at the end of lunch he is upset i can see but why? because of what steph said? no. it was me. he simply says "Im dumping you...i was going to wait till after school but....Im just going to do it now. Your free...go do drugs...go fuck whoever you want" thats what i get from the person i cared about enough to throw away everything for his well being...there he is.
Needless to say i was not happy for the rest of the day, but after school i had to visit my dad at the hospital...nothing serious, just getting his appendix removed. It took all day and i just got home...I finally get a chance to think over today. And as i read back my entry i realize it wasnt that bad...I will be fine, i have my bestest friends that watch over me and cheer me up when i need it, and i want to thank them for it.