It Never Really Felt Like Christmas
As I sit here staring into my computer screen, searching for words and reasons not to be upset about the season, I find myself crying. I'm not one for pouring out my guts on the internet, but I have to say 2010 has been the worst year EVER, not only because of the state of the world outside of my life, but because of my life.
Everyone who is anyone knows that the world revolves around money. Financial progress. Stability is unachievable without it, and the struggle for it is what drives people insane. I have found that in the last year, I have discovered I cannot trust the people I work for, yet I stayed with that company because they provided me with a steady paycheck and means to support my small but, no less, hungry family. My husband and I have been between jobs before. I have been with my job for 5 years and he with his for about a year.
I told myself that this wouldn't be a bad thing, when it happened, and it probably won't, however the sting is still fresh. Essentially what has happened is that the company we have struggled for a year to save finally gave up. The owner of the company told me and my boss that 'its over'. The signs were there that something was up last week, but my boss told me I was just being suspicious and that there was nothing to worry about. After the weekend I soon found that there was something to worry about, a lot of something for that matter. I lost my job.
Anyway, I'm looking for a career change, but with little experience in anything else, I honestly have NO idea what I'm going to do. I don't think its out of the realm to try and pursue something in the field of art, but I honestly have NO idea how I would even start the process. I just don't know what I'm to do.
Everyone who is anyone knows that the world revolves around money. Financial progress. Stability is unachievable without it, and the struggle for it is what drives people insane. I have found that in the last year, I have discovered I cannot trust the people I work for, yet I stayed with that company because they provided me with a steady paycheck and means to support my small but, no less, hungry family. My husband and I have been between jobs before. I have been with my job for 5 years and he with his for about a year.
I told myself that this wouldn't be a bad thing, when it happened, and it probably won't, however the sting is still fresh. Essentially what has happened is that the company we have struggled for a year to save finally gave up. The owner of the company told me and my boss that 'its over'. The signs were there that something was up last week, but my boss told me I was just being suspicious and that there was nothing to worry about. After the weekend I soon found that there was something to worry about, a lot of something for that matter. I lost my job.
Anyway, I'm looking for a career change, but with little experience in anything else, I honestly have NO idea what I'm going to do. I don't think its out of the realm to try and pursue something in the field of art, but I honestly have NO idea how I would even start the process. I just don't know what I'm to do.