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Gradually feeling more like a human being. Have been able to think about work topics (not actually doing any, just pondering it and the theories behind, I do, after all, love my job). Have driven once, and will apparently be officially allowed to on monday. It's a great weight off my mind.
Am addicted to Radio 4 and the iplayer replays of the Radcliffe and Maconie show. There is a great joy when Gwen suddenly looks really interested in a song that I love too.
I have been thinking about personal talismans. The things you take with you to give you strength when you're doing something scary, like gonks at exams, or whatever. I am extremely sentimental, and almost always carry some sort of talisman when I'm off to do battle. Difficult work meetings mean I wear particular earrings, or the bracelet my brother gave me. It's a Haida engraving of a wolf, which represents family in the Haida symbols, but for me also represents cleverness, fierceness, and working together, all things I aspire towards. Also, my brother gave it to me, and carrying the support of family with me is very important.
When I went into hospital 5 days before I went into labour, feeling terrible, I carried a handkerchief that had belonged to my grandma, embroidered with a daffodil, with an evil eye bead pinned to it. My mum had given me the bead to wear pinned to my wedding dress, so it represented all the joy and strength of the people who came to our wedding, and the women on my mum's side of the family are all determined ladies. I felt the need for strength, and bravery, cos I was scared. I was also carrying my wedding ring, even though it didn't fit at the time, because that seems to be a pretty significant talisman.
I'm not sure they ward me against things, just that they remind me of people, and specific people inspire me and calm me, so my brain can do the warding. The knitting I was carrying reminded me of claire_wain and of my aunt and cousin, and thinking about other people is a sure fire way for me to sort my own head out. So thank you folks who, unbeknownst to you, have been carried around in my bag, or in my blood sugar machine pocket and have given me the power to confront my own scary things.
Do you guys have talismans? How do you use them? Is it spiritual? I'm not sure it is for me, but it could be interpreted that way. Maybe it's a sense of focus that they give me.
Love
N.
Am addicted to Radio 4 and the iplayer replays of the Radcliffe and Maconie show. There is a great joy when Gwen suddenly looks really interested in a song that I love too.
I have been thinking about personal talismans. The things you take with you to give you strength when you're doing something scary, like gonks at exams, or whatever. I am extremely sentimental, and almost always carry some sort of talisman when I'm off to do battle. Difficult work meetings mean I wear particular earrings, or the bracelet my brother gave me. It's a Haida engraving of a wolf, which represents family in the Haida symbols, but for me also represents cleverness, fierceness, and working together, all things I aspire towards. Also, my brother gave it to me, and carrying the support of family with me is very important.
When I went into hospital 5 days before I went into labour, feeling terrible, I carried a handkerchief that had belonged to my grandma, embroidered with a daffodil, with an evil eye bead pinned to it. My mum had given me the bead to wear pinned to my wedding dress, so it represented all the joy and strength of the people who came to our wedding, and the women on my mum's side of the family are all determined ladies. I felt the need for strength, and bravery, cos I was scared. I was also carrying my wedding ring, even though it didn't fit at the time, because that seems to be a pretty significant talisman.
I'm not sure they ward me against things, just that they remind me of people, and specific people inspire me and calm me, so my brain can do the warding. The knitting I was carrying reminded me of claire_wain and of my aunt and cousin, and thinking about other people is a sure fire way for me to sort my own head out. So thank you folks who, unbeknownst to you, have been carried around in my bag, or in my blood sugar machine pocket and have given me the power to confront my own scary things.
Do you guys have talismans? How do you use them? Is it spiritual? I'm not sure it is for me, but it could be interpreted that way. Maybe it's a sense of focus that they give me.
Love
N.