oh my jesus
New Orleans in three days. I'm okay with it, my parents are starting to drive me insane and I need a few days away from them.
It's like this...you know when your friends/people you know say something really small to you, but it's negative. They say it just casually and usually it's just a joke but it still gets to you and bugs you for the rest of your life. Basically, my parents do that all the time. And it's constant. Especially my dad. And usually I just shake it off because most of the time they say it offhandedly whenthey're not paying attention or when they're angry. But, hell...it's still painful!
My dad's in this bad mood today though. Terrible. And ever since he got home he's been harping at me for everything I do. First it was the dishwasher, then he practically shot me when I turned on the television ('BUZZ OFF') and after I got home from this meeting he freaked at me and my mom did too. And then my mom has the nerve to talk to me about it and how I need to watch what I say because my 'dad is in a mood'.
What?! Since when it is my fault that my dad acts like a three year old girl and bitches and sulks about everything. I barely even argue with him and he still treats me like an idiot. Like, I get that I can take things for granted especially with this baseball business. But quite honestly, they need to realize that I'm only 16 - not twenty, and I do have feelings. They treat me like I don't even matter. They never say that shit to my brother, it's only me because I'm the oldest and whatnot.
I'm sick of it. I finally told my mom that some of the shit they say to me makes me feel like crap, and she said something slightly sarcastic. Which also made me feel like crap.
At least I tried.
It's like this...you know when your friends/people you know say something really small to you, but it's negative. They say it just casually and usually it's just a joke but it still gets to you and bugs you for the rest of your life. Basically, my parents do that all the time. And it's constant. Especially my dad. And usually I just shake it off because most of the time they say it offhandedly whenthey're not paying attention or when they're angry. But, hell...it's still painful!
My dad's in this bad mood today though. Terrible. And ever since he got home he's been harping at me for everything I do. First it was the dishwasher, then he practically shot me when I turned on the television ('BUZZ OFF') and after I got home from this meeting he freaked at me and my mom did too. And then my mom has the nerve to talk to me about it and how I need to watch what I say because my 'dad is in a mood'.
What?! Since when it is my fault that my dad acts like a three year old girl and bitches and sulks about everything. I barely even argue with him and he still treats me like an idiot. Like, I get that I can take things for granted especially with this baseball business. But quite honestly, they need to realize that I'm only 16 - not twenty, and I do have feelings. They treat me like I don't even matter. They never say that shit to my brother, it's only me because I'm the oldest and whatnot.
I'm sick of it. I finally told my mom that some of the shit they say to me makes me feel like crap, and she said something slightly sarcastic. Which also made me feel like crap.
At least I tried.