Life should just end...about....hmm....now?
Yeah well that worst has happened....again. Bubba and I broke up...it sucks and I've been crying ever since then, I can't live without him and he can't live without me but he has this really hard way of showing it. I hope everything works out again because now tonight he's pissed at me once again. It's stupid, he's all on this whole power trip about trust when the only thing I ever trusted was him and now he can't even fuckin' seem to TRUST ME! SO! I would love to know what the fuck I did this time!! Haha, that'd be so nice. I guess ever since we've been broken up, I've been doing everything wrong? I GUESS I CAN'T SEEM TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT!! NEVER HAVE NEVER COULD, I GUESS I JUST NEVER WILL BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING RIGHT FOR HIM!! He tells me he loves me, and I know he means it, but why does he have to be this way! I don't understand, and I guess I never will. I feel so empty without him. I've went from having everything I have ever wanted to, nothing. All in one motherfuckin' day. Now, how is that for a fuckin' story? Yeah, I don't know. I don't know what I love about him, it's him, it's how he moves, how he talks, how he smells, how he acts, how he looks, how he breathes, how he holds me, how he kisses me, how he touches me, how he fucks me. Yeah, that got a little personal, but it's the truth. I love everything about him and I ALWAYS WILL! SO whenever he sees that I'm not giving up on him...he's definately fucked! But I'm getting too depressed to write anymore. Later you all, I only wish this was for good.