Isolationism
I'm working again a lot these days on the new musical, which will be premiered in April: You Higuri's 'Ludwig II.', the tragic love story of the famous bavarian king.
I don't have a lot of time to work for the shows and I have to squeeze it somewhere in between, because setting up a musical takes hundreds of hours to complete. I hope to make some serious progress soon.
Yesterday I thought about you here, although I don't even have that much cosplay work to show around. The Germans among you may already know that I'm seldom to be seen at conventions, although I'm attending many; I'm just stuck in the backstage area most of the time.
I don't consider myself a 'real' cosplayer at all. I seldom do big cosplay projects, I don't have a cosplay schedule for conventions and all these things that cosplayer seem to do. Concerning the anime fandom (and that's why we're here, aren't we), almost all of my time and strength is devoted to the musicals I'm bringing on stage together with my troupe. That's a project which can never eat enough. I have high ambitions, I want my shows to move the audience, to be something worth to be seen, and I'm doing this for so many years now that I never really got connected to the cosplay scene. Sometimes I think that the only thing that links me with cosplay is wearing costumes. Although that's all that is to cosplay. Or isn't it? Maybe I didn't understand this phenomenon yet, after all the years.
I'm a director, I'm a producer, I'm an actor, I'm not a cosplayer. I'm stating this because I often get the impression that I'm being criticized for what I do. Although it's only a pastime, I don't get anything by posting here, but still I get a lot of attention and I know that many believe that I don't deserve it. I don't know about that myself, but I think I have to explain myself for that, just because so many people seem to be interested in that; and because people who get attention often have to explain themselves, solely for the matter of doing.
There's no 'right' to be popular in the cosplay scene. There is no earning, it's mostly just happening. There is nothing I did for it, but I understand if others don't understand it as well. I'm mostly posting photos of various Riku cosplays.
I don't consider myself one of 'the great cosplayers of the world', if there are such like this. I'm making costumes to wear them on stage in the shows I do, and that makes me happy for real. I like to work hard to enchant people the best I can, to give them emotions by being able to see things they love come to life. That's where my talents lie, my experiences, as much as my passions. That's the thing I always wanted to be good at.
That may also add to my reputation of isolating myself from the 'scene'. I'm said to stay away from people, unwilling to make new friends. That's not true. I just don't have the time everyone deserves who talks to me. I often have to disappoint people. And I don't like that, but I can't keep up with all the messages I get, and I have to turn those down who want to chat with me because I know that it would result in more disappointment.
So many people know me, but when I'm at a convention, I often notice how little people I know myself. And this fact makes me sad sometimes, because I'm devoting so much time and strength to a scene to whose 'inhabitants' I'm not connected.
I'm someone who works alone a lot, which is mostly a result of my lack of time at conventions, as much as in the internet. I'm seldom just chatting with people and I cannot answer all the comments I get every day, as much as the notes I get are sometimes neglected for quite some time. That doesn't mean I'm not interested in what you think. It's said that I'm doing what I do for the simple fact of attention, and I know that I'm not doing much to prove them wrong. But what I can do, is to tell you about what I'm thinking. I love to hear from you, from all of you, and I'm glad that you can find something inspiring in what I can offer you here. In all its simplicity, it is a bit related to the shows I do. I want to inspire, I want to see glittering eyes. I'm glad for every time that works, no matter how small the reason for it may be.
The Germans among you, who have seen one or more of the shows I've done, may have seen a bit of the reasons why I'm as easy to catch as the wind. But most of you most likely never will (unless you stopped by at Veoh for some of the rather crappy audience recordings), and I understand why that results in my reputation of arrogance, isolationism and self-centeredness. And I understand why you're getting annoyed by the constant sight of a certain white wig. It's my pastime, but much more of a pastime than a cosplayer would see it as.
I'd like to show to all my true passion. I'd like to show you my works, the ones that I do from the bottom of my heart, and that isn't cosplay. But the world is bigger than this and I don't think I'll see you all here at one of these conventions in Germany this year, although that would be terribly great^_-
I'd like to do more for you, but I don't know what.
So it's now up to you: What would you like to see, to read, to know? Maybe there are simple things to give you some of the things back that you're giving to me.
Feel free to comment and tell me. If I can do it, I will.
I don't have a lot of time to work for the shows and I have to squeeze it somewhere in between, because setting up a musical takes hundreds of hours to complete. I hope to make some serious progress soon.
Yesterday I thought about you here, although I don't even have that much cosplay work to show around. The Germans among you may already know that I'm seldom to be seen at conventions, although I'm attending many; I'm just stuck in the backstage area most of the time.
I don't consider myself a 'real' cosplayer at all. I seldom do big cosplay projects, I don't have a cosplay schedule for conventions and all these things that cosplayer seem to do. Concerning the anime fandom (and that's why we're here, aren't we), almost all of my time and strength is devoted to the musicals I'm bringing on stage together with my troupe. That's a project which can never eat enough. I have high ambitions, I want my shows to move the audience, to be something worth to be seen, and I'm doing this for so many years now that I never really got connected to the cosplay scene. Sometimes I think that the only thing that links me with cosplay is wearing costumes. Although that's all that is to cosplay. Or isn't it? Maybe I didn't understand this phenomenon yet, after all the years.
I'm a director, I'm a producer, I'm an actor, I'm not a cosplayer. I'm stating this because I often get the impression that I'm being criticized for what I do. Although it's only a pastime, I don't get anything by posting here, but still I get a lot of attention and I know that many believe that I don't deserve it. I don't know about that myself, but I think I have to explain myself for that, just because so many people seem to be interested in that; and because people who get attention often have to explain themselves, solely for the matter of doing.
There's no 'right' to be popular in the cosplay scene. There is no earning, it's mostly just happening. There is nothing I did for it, but I understand if others don't understand it as well. I'm mostly posting photos of various Riku cosplays.
I don't consider myself one of 'the great cosplayers of the world', if there are such like this. I'm making costumes to wear them on stage in the shows I do, and that makes me happy for real. I like to work hard to enchant people the best I can, to give them emotions by being able to see things they love come to life. That's where my talents lie, my experiences, as much as my passions. That's the thing I always wanted to be good at.
That may also add to my reputation of isolating myself from the 'scene'. I'm said to stay away from people, unwilling to make new friends. That's not true. I just don't have the time everyone deserves who talks to me. I often have to disappoint people. And I don't like that, but I can't keep up with all the messages I get, and I have to turn those down who want to chat with me because I know that it would result in more disappointment.
So many people know me, but when I'm at a convention, I often notice how little people I know myself. And this fact makes me sad sometimes, because I'm devoting so much time and strength to a scene to whose 'inhabitants' I'm not connected.
I'm someone who works alone a lot, which is mostly a result of my lack of time at conventions, as much as in the internet. I'm seldom just chatting with people and I cannot answer all the comments I get every day, as much as the notes I get are sometimes neglected for quite some time. That doesn't mean I'm not interested in what you think. It's said that I'm doing what I do for the simple fact of attention, and I know that I'm not doing much to prove them wrong. But what I can do, is to tell you about what I'm thinking. I love to hear from you, from all of you, and I'm glad that you can find something inspiring in what I can offer you here. In all its simplicity, it is a bit related to the shows I do. I want to inspire, I want to see glittering eyes. I'm glad for every time that works, no matter how small the reason for it may be.
The Germans among you, who have seen one or more of the shows I've done, may have seen a bit of the reasons why I'm as easy to catch as the wind. But most of you most likely never will (unless you stopped by at Veoh for some of the rather crappy audience recordings), and I understand why that results in my reputation of arrogance, isolationism and self-centeredness. And I understand why you're getting annoyed by the constant sight of a certain white wig. It's my pastime, but much more of a pastime than a cosplayer would see it as.
I'd like to show to all my true passion. I'd like to show you my works, the ones that I do from the bottom of my heart, and that isn't cosplay. But the world is bigger than this and I don't think I'll see you all here at one of these conventions in Germany this year, although that would be terribly great^_-
I'd like to do more for you, but I don't know what.
So it's now up to you: What would you like to see, to read, to know? Maybe there are simple things to give you some of the things back that you're giving to me.
Feel free to comment and tell me. If I can do it, I will.