Ah, well...

[nangbaby]

So once again, I find that the people I trusted as friends on-line are friends no more. It's really sad that the only people I can trust any more are people I know from before, say, 2001. I thought you were supposed to get more friends as you grew older, not lose them

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[sin_ominous]

Well, you can't demand at gunpoint, Nang. I may not respond, but I do read your journal entries each time new ones come in. In fact, I do the same for other people on my list, too. Only rarely do I work up the effort to chime in.

I, for one, have been proccupied with keeping my job secure and devoting time to my family and girlfriend. That's why my own entries are recently few and far inbetween.

As for friendships, they've dwindled for me, save for a few friends of which I owe my mental health. The rest have just fallen off the map as they move on with their own lives, education, and careers.

[nangbaby]

I should have clarified that this wasn't about you or Ensel Pla, but about a lot of people I met in between the people I've known for years. But I keep people at arms' length because despite the reassurances that they are still your friends, one day, they ineviatbly choose someone else over you.

[esnelpla]

You spelled my name wrong but I still love you :D

[nangbaby]

I'm sorry and offer no excuse.

I fail at spelling...and reading. Heck, I've spelled my own screen name "Nanbaby" or "Nangaby" or (very often) "Nangabby" for starters, so when people called me "Nagbaby," I didn't even realize it was an insult at first.

I used to spell Karin's last name Kazunki.

You've actually inspired an entry, sadly.

[miluda]

It's not the amount of friends that matter, it's the quality of the friendship, at least I think so.

I have always thought that if you treated others the way you wanted to be treated, that would be good... but it's not always the case. Now I only treat people the way I want to be treated knowing that I won't be treated the same. I'll treat them right because I want to treat them right. If they don't treat me right, then they don't need to talk to me at all. People are people, some can be trusted and some can't be.

I got betrayed two months ago. A person I thought who would never hurt me in such a way really did, and they were only a friend! I trusted them with everything, and they took it and threw it in my face. Called me a fake person, said everything I said is meaningless, and that I never cared. That I used people.

I cut my contact with them immediately. Better to keep the friends who do care than the ones who don't.

Damn...

[nangbaby]

Wow, and I thought this was bad...

Re: Damn...

[miluda]

Oh, but that is nonsense, the highlighted part. Anyone can just call me a chink and assume it's offending. I would have thought the "screwed people over too many times and betrayed their trust" is worse.

It's when they say things like "Oh, when you talk, it's full of shit because you just like to use people and enjoy it" is different than "OH YOU'RE SO JEWISH!"

But anyway, I think people just misunderstand you too much. I hardly ever talk too much of my opinions unless it's about personal feelings or someone else is needing an opinion.

True...

[nangbaby]

Oh trust me, I have had far worse words thrown at me since then. I've had threatened bodily harm, rape, and death on me over some words on a message board. There are people who have told me to kill myself, and some (yep, more than one) who have wished that my mom had performed a self-abortion with a coat hanger. These are from the same people of course who I once called friends and who I trusted with personal details.

See, I'm not going to give them the luxury of ignorance. What they do is group tactic bullshit. They label you, you ask them reasonable questions, then they simply label you more without answering the question, then get everyone to agree with the label. They know what they're doing, and they get away with because you're not liked. Then they say it's a "joke." Humbug!

[anonymous]

Perhaps you should visit an orphanage to pick up friends then, instead of choosing people with family, and then getting mad when they're more important to your friend. Because, you know, usually the family members have been around a good bit longer.

[damaris]

Oops, sorry. That was me. My browser apparently logged me out.

[nangbaby]

How in the hell are sethtriggs and llearch family, both of whom you've known for a shorter time than you've known me?

Wow.....

[anonymous]

I still don't know why you bother with half of this crap at this point. And what is with the racial slurs people like to use against you? Guess it shows you who wears a sheet behind closed doors...........