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Once I calmed down...which took about a week, I started thinking.
I've got to just put everything aside.
I have to just control myself and think about work.
Just.. work.
I have to focus.
Some part of me doesn't understand what happened.
That stupid, naive part. The part that just can't grip onto reality.
And there is the rest of me..
The part that just wants to keep kicking myself.
How STUPID could you have been?!??
I don't really understand how she used me. Or moreover, WHY.
You'd think, that after all that's happened.. I'd be used to it.
But I'm not.
I'm still searching for affection. And, quite frankly, I'm tired of it.
I need something to DO in this hellhole. And that, with my chosen career of choice, would be..what?
I need a Slayer.
Since David was currently out of commission, that left Lynn or Ethan as second in command. Not really wanting to talk to Ethan unless I had to, I went to Lynn's office instead.
Knocking politely on the door, I said softly, "It's Sean. Have you got a moment?"
((Open for Lynn))
I've got to just put everything aside.
I have to just control myself and think about work.
Just.. work.
I have to focus.
Some part of me doesn't understand what happened.
That stupid, naive part. The part that just can't grip onto reality.
And there is the rest of me..
The part that just wants to keep kicking myself.
How STUPID could you have been?!??
I don't really understand how she used me. Or moreover, WHY.
You'd think, that after all that's happened.. I'd be used to it.
But I'm not.
I'm still searching for affection. And, quite frankly, I'm tired of it.
I need something to DO in this hellhole. And that, with my chosen career of choice, would be..what?
I need a Slayer.
Since David was currently out of commission, that left Lynn or Ethan as second in command. Not really wanting to talk to Ethan unless I had to, I went to Lynn's office instead.
Knocking politely on the door, I said softly, "It's Sean. Have you got a moment?"
((Open for Lynn))