Can't go to Ottawa?

[nancytoday]

Willem didn't want me to go to Ottawa with him today. He says he wants me to find a home for Alida's cat and go to the chiropractor. He was going to drop me off to pick up my car.

I felt rejected. I called and the chiropractor's office was closed. I knew I'd be battling mosquitoes if I were outside, so I'd end up staying inside and being online.

I felt abandoned. I didn't want to stay home. I have no purpose at home, anymore. I feel like I just waste the day, staying in the house or driving the backroads just to be outside.

I wonder at the bushes and trees I've planted. Is that what is causing us to have so many mosquitoes? I don't know. I doubt it, actually.

Why am I doing these gardens when nobody is even there to look at them? Is there a reason for that?

I love spending time with Willem during the commutes. It's very enjoyable. I like spending time with him. I can't justify staying home all day when my mom is so lonely down there in Georgia!

I can't sit in that chair of mine anymore. It makes me hurt so badly when I get up. I'm not sure just why, though.

I begged. Imagine, having to beg! Anyway, he let me come along when Donnie hadn't fixed my car anyway.